- He gave me an ultimatum and I don't think I can do through with it in the time he wants. I'm gonna lose him again. He's gonna hate me. But I can't. I just want to talk to him. but he's not answering me. cry.
- I wish I had an eating disorder. Right now I just eat everything in site
- I wish my husband would hit me hard enough to bruise. I need that stepping stone to leave him.
- DH doesn't know I keep whatever I find in his pockets when doing laundry. I made $20 today.
- I'd have another baby if my oldest wasn't so hard to handle.
- I favor my younger S b/c my older S is so difficult. :-(
- All ds1mo wants to do is snuggle with mommy, all I want to do is go to sleep. Feel so horrible. FUCK BEING A SINGLE MOM. I know you didn't choose this, little man, but neither did I.
- Someone who lives with me called CPS on me, complaining that I have sex with my SO 3 feet away from DS2. Yeah, we do. In the dark. When he sleeps. We have ZERO privacy otherwise. They'd be shocked how many parents do this.
- I purge at least twice aweek.
- Son embarrasses me when we go out because he is so defiant about everything. Raises his voice or just screams. It's so hard....only giving him meds on school days. Weekends are nuts!
- I'm jealous of my exSIL. She grew up poor in a trailer, now she drives a really nice car and lives in a better neighborhood than I do, and is single after two divorces. Lucky.
- I need to smoke a bowl in order to bring myself to take my son outside to play.
- Was sick yesterday, getting over the flu. Still went to the store to get stuff to make dinner. Not because I'm dedicated, but because I needed some time AWAY from these people.
- DS17 just decided he's going to live at home and attend community college. Shoot me now.
- I think my girls would have a better life if I would have given them up for adoption. I suck as a mother. Depression is slowly killing me and I feel so bad for my girls.
- I go for a 'run' but usually end up sitting on a park bench enjoying the peace and quiet. The only time to myself I get!