- I find myself thinking that although I love my 4 children, I should not of had any of them in the first place. They drive me crazy to the point where I have to leave the room and hide in my bedroom as to not commit a murder.
- I had an abortion recently but told everyone who knew I was pregnant that I had a miscarriage because Im to ashamed to admit the truth :(
- How do you tell a daycare mom that you don't want to watch her daughter anymore because she's so dumb it raises your blood pressure. Seriously. 3 year old village idiot.
- Dh is my Dominant. I am his submissive. It's saved our marriage
- Today I returned clothing given to my 4 month old son as a gift and bought clothes for myself with the money.
- The dawn of a new day should mean hope and promise for a better day than the ones past. Around here it means oh fuck not again
- The children have ruined me. Physically, financially, and mentally.
- Just buried my father. No tears shed because he was a mean son of a bitch when I was growing up. But I am wistful wondering about the "might have beens".
- Part of me wants today have a third child just to piss off my mom. She's always making backhanded remarks about how I could be "making more money" or in "be in grad school" if I hadn't had kids young and close in age.
- Every Tuesday I make DH buy dinner. It is the only "cooking" he does. Thank God he is willing to do dishes.
- Just found out DH's cousin is going to jail for being a pedophile. Feel vindicated. I hated that guy and always felt uneasy about him. DH and MIL thought I was nuts. F U!!!
- I think of old friends I'd like to add on facebook but don't because I gained weight and don't want them to see me this way.
- Newest form of self harm, digging ingrown hairs out of my bikini line.
- Sometimes i fantasize about life without H but I would be devastated if something happened to him
- I think I'm pregnant with #2. Diff dads. Too scared to take a test. My mother just lectured me about birthcontrol last week. I'm 28 and that bitch doesn't help me anyway. Wtf.
- I just found out I'm pregnant!!! I am ecstatic but have to pretend it was an accident because no one would understand why I would ever want another kid.