Former Runway Model Says 'F*ck This' And Embraces Healthy Weight Gain

Former Runway Model Says ‘F*ck This’ And Embraces Healthy Weight Gain

After years of struggling to maintain an unhealthy weight this model decided to try something different.

Liza Golden-Bhojwani is a stunning model who recently joined the body positivity movement after literally starving herself on just 500 calories a day. Her struggles with her weight are inspiring others to embrace their natural sizes without extreme diet and exercise plans.

She recently took to Instagram to share her personal story with food, dieting, modeling, and finding the right balance of everything for her life. The post went viral with more than 13,000 likes and thousands of comments from women thanking Golden-Bhojwani for her honesty. It shows two side-by-side images of the model when she was at the peak of her career and then a current photo.

A little flashback Friday action for you. This caption will be long and won't fit, so if you'd like to read please find the rest in the comment section….The left side was me at the start of the peak of my career. My first proper fashion week where I was actually the size I needed to be. I was booking amazing shows that one never thinks they actually could, walking with girls who I once looked up to, it was a serious adrenaline rush…but after fainting one night in my apt whilst preparing one of my very low cal meals (I think it was 20 pieces of steamed edamame if I remember correctly), I called it quits with the diet and workout regime I was put on and decided I could do it on my own. I thought to myself, I can still be this thin, but I'll just eat a little more so I don't feel so horrible. Well, eating a little more turned into eating nearly a bag full of almonds, which then turned into eating full size meals, which then turned into a full blown binge. I was craving every single food you could imagine and I was giving in to every craving even though I knew this was such an important time in my career. I made it through NYFW okay, no one had noticed any weight gain, but by the time I had gotten the LFW I could see the pounds starting to show both in the mirror and on the measuring tape, but I kept quiet obviously not wanting to sabotage myself. I found myself going to the grocery store and picking up raw vegetables to try and make up for the near two week binge I had in NY, but I didn't see any weight coming off no matter how "healthy" I was eating and no matter how many workouts I fit in. MFW came and I knew I was bigger and by bigger I mean a 35.5in hip rather than the 34.5in hip I started with in NY, I played it cool and just pretended everything was normal. I did end up booking shows, Dolce & Gabbana being one of them. Which I afterwards received online criticism about my thighs looking fat…Anyways PFW came about, and I found it impossible to resist those chocolate croissants 🙊 I went on many a casting with one exclusive option being on my schedule, but after meeting the client I knew the reason for me not nailing the gig, my size…

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“The left side was me at the start of the peak of my career. My first proper fashion week where I was actually the size I needed to be. I was booking amazing shows that one never thinks they actually could, walking with girls who I once looked up to, it was a serious adrenaline rush,” she wrote. “But after fainting one night in my apt whilst preparing one of my very low cal meals (I think it was 20 pieces of steamed edamame if I remember correctly), I called it quits with the diet and workout regime I was put on and decided I could do it on my own.”

If you’ve ever tried a high-risk, extreme low-calorie diet, then you likely know what followed for Golden-Bhojwani: crashing and binging. “Eating a little more turned into eating nearly a bag full of almonds, which then turned into eating full size meals, which then turned into a full blown binge,” she shared. “I was craving every single food you could imagine and I was giving in to every craving even though I knew this was such an important time in my career.” Who could blame her? It’s not natural to starve ourselves, and it’s beyond ridiculous that models still have to do this in 2017.

Golden-Bhojwani made it through fashion weeks in various cities without anyone noticing her minor weight gains. But eventually the small additions to her waistline were noticed, and Golden-Bhojwani could no longer book a show. “I don’t know why of all people I was just unable to keep up with the diets and the regimes. I thought I was weak minded, I didn’t care enough, or maybe I just didn’t want it enough,” she wrote. “I beat myself up for a long time, playing it over and over again in my head how I completely failed.”

April 2014-32-25.5-35 Vs. October 2016-38-30.5-42 if you're in my industry you know what those numbers mean and how F'ing scary that shit is. I remember having measurement days and making sure not to eat anything or even have water so that I could be the skinniest and flattest I could be. I had tricks to tuck my hips and cinch my waist to get a smaller measurement. I measured out food I ate and logged it in a food diary daily and I would make sure I didn't go over X amount of calories per day. If I did or if I binged out of hunger, I would puke that up and that made me think it was okay I didn't "actually" eat it. I would chew fruit/dessert flavoured gum just to give me a taste of something delicious since I couldn't physically eat it. I have always been the model who yo-yo's in measurements. Lose a lot of weight and be really skinny and then a few weeks/months later and I would be "big" again. I felt so ashamed and disgusted with myself. I could never understand how so many of the models around me could keep up with it and manage a stable constant measurement. I took 2 years off, unplanned. I honestly never thought I would model again, I mean I was "fat" no one would want to work with me at the size I was, I just figured it was over. All the blood, sweat, and tears I put in to that body was literally all for nothing. A short lived moment of success. Out of the blue one day as I was getting bigger and bigger I just said fuck this, I am still going to work and I refuse to starve myself to do so. I talked to my mother agent of nearly 10 years @ginnyedwardsmaxwell and we started making things happen piece by piece. Everything is still so new (I only started back up in October), but already I feel so much fucking happier with myself and my life! It's like a secret you hold onto so deeply for years and years that you finally let out and you feel so damn liberated!! No I don't ever plan on being that skinny again and to the next person who says "oh you looked so much better thin" GO FUCK YOURSELF! You have NO clue wtf I went through to be like that and how MISERABLE I was #bodypositive #effyourbeautystandards #loveyourself #standout #honormycurves

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The model left the high fashion scene because she couldn’t bear to starve herself any longer, but it still took a few years before she truly felt healthy and happy. “In 2014 I got a kick, a rev of my engine, I wanted to get in shape again. I wanted in again, but in a much healthier way…. And I did just that, I worked my a** off day in and day out in the gym. I was strict about my diet, but I wasn’t fully starving myself like I had two years ago,” Golden-Bhojwani wrote. “In 2012 I was having about 500 calories a day, whereas here in 2014 I was having about 800–1,200 depending on my mood and hunger patterns. I was the fittest I ever was in my entire career at this point, I had six-pack abs, but still I wasn’t fit enough for the likes of Victoria’s Secret or other brands.”

Despite all of her hard work, Golden-Bhojwani felt let down with the fashion industry. “One day I just thought… why am I fighting against my body? Why don’t I just go in the same direction? Stop forcing my own agenda and just listen to my body,” she explained. “And that’s what I did. The picture on the right is me as of right now, my body as it is. Not perfect, not show ready or VS ready, not the best, but it is mine and my soul is happy.”

Golden-Bhojwani still exercises five times a week but shared that it is for her own health and not for a modeling job. She’s also managed to start eating what she wants without feeling guilt. “Maybe I wasn’t made to be on the covers of magazines and shooting the biggest and best brands, but I was made for a reason,” Golden-Bhojwani shared. “Maybe I was made to share this story and spread the message of body love to all the women out there struggling.”