Support/Prayer/Advice - Scary Mommy

I don't know if I should

PenguinsMomma — Sat, 18 May 2013 21:47:36 -0600

ugh so my night just took a downward spiral. And i have to admit a few things to get this off my chest.

I was in a relationship with a man that was having extreme marital issues. When we met i believed he was days from signing divorce papers. It took awhile for me to begin a sexual relationship with him cause, well, my son's father gave me and std. I had no idea he had this,, i didn't have a choice in getting it from he. He decided not to tell me, he decided to infect me.

SO, I gave this "new" guy the option, he chose to take the risk. well, shit happened and we aren't together anymore and he is trying to work things out with his wife.

Here is my issue, he hasn't been tested. From what I hear he isn't planning on it. Which means he is putting his wife in the same situation I was put in. But, now it was my doing. I feel like if he doesn't want to warn her I should. But, that means coming clean about our relationship. But, I think she has a right to know that her health is at risk here.

What do you ladies think? Do I give him some more time and then tell her if he doesn't. Or do I let it be and try not to feel the guilt? Should I feel guilty?

Hubby :-(

shortandsweet — Mon, 13 May 2013 12:45:44 -0600

Yesterday dh saw his dad for the first time in almost 2 years. When we lived in ny they saw each other every day. They are really really close. Yesterday as we were starting our drive home, i looked over at him and he was crying. My heart broke for him. I feel like I should do something to cheer him up,but i got nothing. :-( I feel so useless

CALLING ALL SCARIES!! I need our powers combined!

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Failing miserably

Goddess — Sat, 18 May 2013 19:06:54 -0600

As a mom today.

Farted around at the house longer than I intended to.

Picked up the nephew, took boys to water park for a couple hours. Planned on going to Ramgers game. Coach's teen son wanted to go w so we had to wait for him to meet us. Left water park late.

Get to rangers stadium. Fucking tickets I have are something or other. Those seats were unavailable tonight. I could purchase the only remaining seats to the time of $350 a head. Yeah, buddy. Do I look that rich to you???

So SIL says to take them to this restaurant w a metal slide and let them play while the teen stays at the ball field in standing room only to watch the game. His mom said fine. I'm a nervous wreck.

First, it takes an enormous amount of strength for me to venture into the metroplex on my own. Let alone for social things like a huge ball game. My x always drove to places like this. Only this drive was way less stressful, since I was driving, I was in control.

So anywho... Two little boys are pissed off. I manage to get lost WITH GPS.

Get to the restaurant. The slide, the whole purpose of coming here, is closed.

And there's a fffffucking country band playing. The kind of country I spent over a decade dancing to w my ex.

Fucking shoot me now. :-q

Oh, and thanks for reading this rant. You get a cookie.

holy shit!!!!! confessions

undercoverbanana — Sat, 18 May 2013 23:02:56 -0600

I can't stand being around my kids, if it wasn't for appearances I'd give them to their dad. I still try to be the best mom I can and not let them feel that I don't want them full time. I never wanted kids to begin with. My husband is pissed at me because I told a friend something that he told me not to tell and he's going crazy and says he can't trust me ever again. I'm scared that he might murder me tonight in my sleep. Spent whole day sleeping off a hangover. Damn that felt good. I just text my ea , who I was supposed to never see again, and I'm now debating on whether I'm going to fuck him tonight. H is working. Im so horrible. Fml

(me) if you hate being a mother that much, your kids already know. everyday. your kids know what is appearance, and what is not. please get counseling, or let their dad raise them. why do they have to suffer for appearances? are you running for office or something?

Law Help please!

Thefinder — Fri, 17 May 2013 20:15:53 -0600

I am asking for a SM friend who would rather not be put up for judgement....

What the penalties are for contempt of court for withholding visitation?

Her ds has started to not want to go to see his dad when the dads gf and kids are over at the same time. They are sketchy people.

She is not forcing him to go.

Any info/advice for her?

anniversary gift experience ruined

irishdoe — Wed, 08 May 2013 16:15:52 -0600

In need of some advice/support and a shoulder or two to cry on. I have been planning DH anniversary gift for several weeks now. With much internal angst and stress...why? Because I am doing something for him that is way outside my comfort zone. Or at least I was before he turned into Mr.Miser Penny Pinching Fucking control freak. Ok so tomorrow I have planned to go have photos taken of myself by a very talented hard to get appointment photographer. She wants me in the middle of a meadow, on an iron bed with lace and netting at sunset....in basically nothing, or next to nothing. I am having my hair and makeup professionally done as well. I have been freaking out!! Sis in law is driving me up to the mountain so I can drink wine. Anyway that was the plan before DH saw that I had transferred 500money out of one of our savings into our checking. I thought he wouldn't see cuz I do the finances and pay all the bills. Well. He accused me of being dishonest. Called me a liar and sneaky. Said I was supposed to discuss any spending with him and that I was not to touch anymore money and he was taking over the finances. I am floored! Stunned! Bills are paid on time. We have no debt other than his small student loan. The only $thing I spend is on him, the girls, the household, and sometimes I have my hair done (every 6 to 7 weeks). I hide nothing. This was the first time and it was for his fucking anniversary gift FROM ME. It is our 10th. I wanted to make it special. Well. I sorta tossed my ring at him when he called me dishonest and said ok fine. His reply: fucking good. Can't wait to be rid of you. You lying piece of shit.
I had told him before the ring toss that I was going to get a weekend Nursing job to pay for my things I needed so as not to touch HIS money. He said that wouldnt work and my first job was to care for the girls and if he happened to be traveling on the weekend then too bad. I feel like I have been sold a bill of goods and now it's invalid. "Oh quit your career sweety. Stay home. Our kids will be so much better off. My money is your money," fuck. So here is the question...do I go through with the shoot and give him the pictures as a parting gift or do I bag the entire thing? I am just fucking tired and worn down.

im so anxious!

meandmy243 — Thu, 16 May 2013 22:01:46 -0600

Tomorrow is the day im supposed to hear back about the results of my interviews. I prefer working at homedepot over the daycare. Benifets possible and its a mile from home.. but then daycare is daycare. Ugh i am so wound up and tense..

Prayers and Good Thoughts needed today

missy545 — Wed, 15 May 2013 08:55:52 -0600

Hi all! Asking for good thoughts and prayers today for my hubby and my family. He has been off work for over 14 months due to a back injury and todays doctor appointment will determine if he will receive his back pay or not. Between our lawyer and his old work they decided to use an independent evaluator that gets to make one the biggest decisions of our lives. He gets to decide if the MRI that shows my husband is hurt or is faking (MRI shows a lot of different things but since I am not a dr I can't really read it. Lol) This has been a very long 14 months and money is a HUGE void right now. So any prayers and good thoughts today would be awesome!

Fundraiser! Need help, ideas, positive vibes :)

bendorbreak — Fri, 10 May 2013 11:35:31 -0600

Hello ladies :)
I have started a fundraiser to raise money to buy a Cuddle Cot for the hospital Brinley was born in.

A Cuddle Cot is a cooling mat placed in a Moses basket or bassinet and a stillborn or recently deceased infant is placed in the bassinet and kept cool. This gives the family more time to grieve with the child, take pictures, give time for family to see them, and plan funerals. Babies bodies start the decay process very quickly and time is very important. I would have loved to have a few more hours with my Brinley and a Cuddle Cot can help with that.

I have already had a yard sale and plan on flea marketing to raise money. So far I'm up to $41.75. Which isn't bad considering I sold every item for a dollar or less. :)

Since Brinleys birth month is May we are having a month long Scentsy party online. My friend is a Scentsy consultant and she is donating her entire commission from that party to our fundraiser. That's 25%. If you would like to help but don't necessarily want to give money away, this is a way to get something very nice and help put these families. Her website is below, make sure you click on the Cuddle Cot link there.
www.mimiwilson.scentsy.us

Also, if anyone has ideas for more ways to raise money I would surely appreciate the help. The total cost us $3000 and these are only made in the UK. The manufacturer has agreed to pay import fees for us too! There is only one Cuddle Cot in the country so far, I think it's in Florida.

So if you've read this far you've already helped us! Knowledge is the most important thing!

Thanks <3

Life after loss - feeling like I hit a brick wall...

LLB — Wed, 15 May 2013 10:00:10 -0600

When I woke up this morning the day started like any other day then out of nowhere I just lost it. Like I just ran into a brick wall!

My angel baby should be turning 1 in a couple weeks. I should be planning a first birthday party, watching those first steps, hearing those first words, you know all the stuff 1y/o's do.

But I'm not! My baby is gone! The only thing I have to prove he/she even existed is a positive pregnancy test I keep stashed away.

I've never been a religious/spiritual/whatever you want to call it person but I see signs of that baby everywhere lately. I also truly believe baby J was a gift from him/her. Baby J was conceived on THE day of their due date (yes I am 100% positive of the conception date). That was the first month we were "allowed" to start ttc.

Had we not lost him/her Baby J would not exist though which makes me feel kind of... I dunno weird for grieving so much. I should be greatful for what I have. I am very much greatful and love this little girl but I just can't help but wonder what would have been if I hadn't lost him/her. But then I feel like a shitty mom because that would mean baby J wouldn't exist...

I'm not sure what I'm trying to get out of posting this but I needed to get it out somewhere.

I Am So Lost...

ABC — Tue, 07 May 2013 19:59:19 -0600

I can't take life with Dh anymore. We just "talked" and he basically said he's focused on work only...he is driven to be this career whore now smh...not on being a good husband. I am a SAHM and student. I have family in another state but my pride is holding me back. How the fuck do I start over if I leave? I am emotionally unstable as is, trying to finish my bachelors degree, I haven't worked because I can only handle so much or I can't function. Now what? I don't want to be a grown woman living with my mom or dad and dependent on them. But I can't be homeless either. Why doesn't he care? Why am I not good enough? Why won't he fight for me after all I've stuck by for him? I am broken. His sister thinks we should try to work it out. I am miserable and going nowhere with my life. Dd is my life. I don't want her to live like this anymore either. Why is he so damn selfish?! I cant stop crying.

I'm just.......blah.

MommyMichele77 — Thu, 16 May 2013 09:44:33 -0600

I don't even really know what to say here.....I just know that I don't like the way I fel right now. I'm so down.....I'm so tired all the time.....I worry constantly......I'm stressed all the time.....I'm just not happy...I know I have depression and am curently taking zoloft for it. I'm thinking it's time to up my dose. And lately I have been feeling so anxious.....like every day!!! And for no reason really. My heart just starts racing and I get all sweaty and shaky. I hate feeling this way. I just want to feel "normal" (whatever that is). I don't even know what I'm looking for here.....support....positive words....I dont know.....maybe I'm just feeling sorry for myself....Maybe I just need someone to tell me what I'm feeling is normal and I'm not completely crazy...Maybe I just need some good vibes sent my way.....Maybe I just need to be quiet and run away.....

A little smojo for my momma...update in comments

MadHatterMum — Tue, 14 May 2013 11:47:22 -0600

My mother is going to a specialist tomorrow to see what they can do for her arm/hand that has RSD syndrome and also for her back and hips that her pt thinks is linked to her having polio as a child. She has been in pain for several years now and it's really effecting her daily life.
I really hope they can find some relief for her!!
Please send some smojo for her will you!!!
Thanks in advance!!

WTF Am I Doing????

justjess — Sun, 12 May 2013 18:54:10 -0600

I just can't seem to get my head straight lately. I'm about 8 weeks from my due date right now and I'm starting to really bug out. I'm fat and miserable and ready for this to be over. I'm having a kid with a moron and I'm about ready to choke him out. I'm scared to death of becoming my mom bc living with her was a nightmare and she is not being the least bit supportive. All she's doing is scaring the shit out of me a little more every time I talk to her. The thought of doing this all on my own is really beginning to freak me out but it's not like I can turn back now. I'm on bed rest for now so I have way too much time on my hands to over think everything and I think I'm going to drive myself crazier.

Lost

Nikki21 — Wed, 15 May 2013 06:39:54 -0600

So my husband has officially left me...... and to think after all the wrong he did he would take off. This wasn't any take off either, he took off with my two babies. It has been two weeks and I have only seen them once. My husband is taking full advantage of this situation and I hate him for it. I know in the end both my babies will end up with me but staying strong until then is the hardest. Oh yea I missed my sons 3rd birthday...... Way to go dick!

All is good but...

mamafin — Fri, 21 Dec 2012 15:27:25 -0700

(First of all, I'd like to apologise for my crappy English. I don't like to make long posts here because then it's "harder" for me to make sure it's readable, not too many grammar mistakes in it and that I don't "sound" like an idiot :D )

Anyway! Here goes!

Firstly I want to tell that, yes.. I did have a glass of wine ( or 3) before writing this. So this is the time of the night (midnight here) to tell you all "I love you." But I do.

Also... this is the part I don't know if I should write.. Because maybe I sound like an idiot, and because I'm relatively new here. And I don't want to sound like an attention whore but..

I'm quitting my meds. (OCD & anxiety) and I know I can do it. It was my psychiatrists idea. But still I feel like.. WHAT IF! And I feel like "OK, I can try and all.. but what if I I'm crazy without the meds." And I know that that is the OCD talking. (My dear OCD is the kind that doesn't make me turn on and off the light or wash my hands 303 times- It's the one that makes me doubt myself, if I can take care of my DS2, if I can make sure nothing hurts him.)

My SO of course knows I'm getting off the meds. But he's just so blind or something. He wouldn't notice anything "funny" about my behaviour. He doesn't want to see if something's wrong.
My best friend, who would notice, is travelling for the next 2 months (that bitch :D California, Cayman Islands..)

Sooooo, I quess what I'm trying to say... shyly, is:
Could you keep an eye on me?

I don't even know how! Maybe if I start to sound really depressed or really sad, just tell me to ... get my shit together.. Or send me happy thoughts. IDK.. Just to know someone might be there if I do hit the rock bottom would really help.

Thank you.
Sorry.
Aaaaaargh!!! I feel like an idiot :D

So many sanctimommies, such a small place

ajb78 — Mon, 13 May 2013 17:37:52 -0600

DS started tball this evening, and there were so many bitchy uptight moms that I felt ill. I introduced myself to one, and she looked down her nose at me and made a "mmmhhhh" sound.
I felt like hitting her with a bat. It's fucking tball! If this is how the rest of the season is going to be, I'm going to start bringing wine in my water bottle.

smojo please! job interview! update in comments another place interview

meandmy243 — Wed, 01 May 2013 14:23:24 -0600

I have an interview in 10 mins.. I hope i get this!

Update on surgery... and I'll adjust my attitude. Eventually * Updated again*

Luvlyssa — Fri, 10 May 2013 15:09:46 -0600

So.... the good the bad the depressing.

I met with the surgeon today. Well I
met with a resident and then with surgeon. Nice guy (bad reviews
online).

They both feel that this MIGHT help,
and that they hope it does. Apparently 70% of people get relief from
their gall bladder symptoms. So I'll be in that 70%..... eventually.

My new “state health insurance”
does not cover the doctor OR the surgery. This means I have to pay
cash for it.

(this is where it gets ugly).

Doctor wants a $375 deposit... for
surgery (keyword. Deposit).

Hospital wants at LEAST $500 deposit.
(again. Keyword. Deposit.)

I could have had surgery as soon as
this Monday... but no. I don't have $875. sigh.

I don't even have $290 for June rent. I
have food stamps so I have food. I need money for test strips and to
fix my cavity. ($5 each thanks to insurance)

In talking to the people... it's like
they have … no concept. I'm like “I don't have $375!” “Well
we'll put on on will call... give us a call when you have the money”
…...

I am so tired of this stuff. Yeah it's
not a guarantee that it'll fix me... but ANYTHING will help.

I had hope and now I don't.

I've had a ton of interviews... but
even if I had a job I'd have to take 5-10 days off to heal... and
then what? Ugh.

On the upside (this is me trying to
adjust my attitude). I've had three job interviews in two days. I
have one tomorrow. I feel ok/meh about two of the three and good
about one.

How will I get this money? Priorities.
But …

ugh.

heading to er with ds

meandmy243 — Mon, 13 May 2013 16:27:14 -0600

Blood sugar is low hes vomitting and norwalk(?) Virus is at his school. Pleaae hope he doesnt have it it could kill him!

idk what to do?! (might be homeless soon)

craziamy — Mon, 13 May 2013 16:02:24 -0600

I think were getting kicked out of my mother in laws house cuz the health department came out and looked at the plumbing on our side of the house because fiecies literally comes out of the Shower drain. We have to wear a face mask just to go into the bathroom. Weve been calling Shelters and thier all full. And waiting lists for housing is one to two year waiting lists. What should we do? Im gonna have a baby in november and my son is out of school on May 29th. My dh is desperately looking for work. Were just so stuck. :(

BIL in ICU SMojo needed! **Update in Comments-Guardianship?

PurpleMomma — Sat, 27 Apr 2013 06:43:13 -0600

For the second time, my DH has had to rush to the ER with one of his brothers in an ambulance. His other brother died from a brain aneurysm. Last night we found out his brother has severe bleeding in his brain and mostly likely caused by a stroke. DH also lost his father in a traumatic way 7 years ago.

The history with my in-laws has not been great and this is going to be very difficult. I don't want to sound horrible, but my DH and I have not had a very good relationship with BIL because he has been out of work nearly two years and living off of his mother (he has always, but it was getting so much worse). He was barely trying to find any work and living like he made six figures, so not saying anything about people who have been struggling to find a new job. He has never been married and does not have children and is what my DH calls the "Golden Child" and does no wrong in his mothers eyes. That said, I am feeling horrible about our relationship and of course only hope the best. The doctors said this will be measured in weeks and months, not days. The road ahead will be very long.

I am asking for prayers or whatever for him, but more for my DH. I am really scared that MIL will take this out on him because he has been putting pressure on BIL to get a job and grow up. She even made a comment already last night about making him feel guilty. He has never (in my 23 years being with him) been anything but responsible, loving and kind and would do anything to anyone and he works so hard for our family and we scrape by. His Mom and brother have a co-dependent relationship. It got really scary to me last night when we went to his apartment to look for his cell phone. I knew he had a messy place, but hadn't been there for years. I couldn't even imagine how bad it would be. I honestly think he is a hoarder! His place was so disgusting and filled with stuff. One room was boxes up to the ceiling and you could barely move around. Thankfully there was a clear enough path for the paramedics to get to him, but I'm sure it wasn't very easy.

Also asking for SMojo for me, because I don't know how I can sit there and listen to MIL gush on and on about her perfect son, when my DH is sitting there, clearly hurting and she couldn't care less. Damn it! He is such a wonderful man and I am so lucky to have him, it tears my heart out for him.

I'm also having a birthday party for my DD who is turning 9 and I don't want to cancel that. She is too young to understand and has been so excited for months!

So sorry, this past year has sucked for our family and I need some extra support...

Not a Hallmark Holiday

Rosamundi — Sun, 12 May 2013 15:50:59 -0600

Mother's Day is always a mixed bag for me. I have a very strained relationship with my own mother, but I love my kids. I know I am not alone in my mixed feelings, so I wanted to share this reflection from one if my favorite professors (Dr. Glenn Pemberton). All my love to the mommies, grandmothers, and the rest of you ladies!

Lord, God of Sarah, Rebekka, Rachael,
and God of Hagar, Bilhah, and Zilpah.
God of the hopeless, surprised by joy;
and God of the used-up and thrown away.

Created in your image,
her identity is found in relationship to you.
Made to reign over creation alongside man;
not to be ruled over or cheapened,
reduced to a bodily function, defaced,
only giving men what they want.
Oh God, forgive us.

So God help us this Mother’s day
to recognize what is genuine, what is good.
Open our eyes to those hidden among us,
and help us to see your love in the hard places.

We recognize those who work so hard
to be the mother you call them to be.
To balance work, dance lessons, and baseball games,
with dinner around the table, homework, and
bed-time prayers.
And we bless them.

We recognize those who thought parenting days were done,
who had dreams of their own for the second half of life.
But for a dozen reasons are now changing diapers and
mixing formula,
putting on pajamas, reading about three bears, and saying bed-time prayers.
And we bless them.

We recognize mothers whose plans for family,
changed forever when he walked out.
And now, working forty hours a week is only the beginning,
to finding good day care, finding time to cook,
and finding the energy to love their children.
And we bless them.

We recognize mothers who are most like you,
adopting children who are not their own.
But making them their own with unconditional love,
no less than any mother ever loved her child.
And we bless them.

And we recognize those who invest their hearts
in children destined for other families.
Knowing their time will be short, their attachment strong;
and every time their heart will break just a little.
And then they open their homes and their hearts again.
And we bless them.

And God, we recognize the mothers
who cannot understand how life can possibly go on.
Who cannot answer the question,
“How many children do you have?”
And we cannot imagine the pain this day inflicts,
year after year, tear after tear.
And we grieve with them.

God, we recognize those like Sarah and Hannah;
month after month, year after year unable to conceive.
Wanting more than anything to hold a baby – their baby,
but being told that it will not, cannot happen.
And we cannot imagine the pain this day inflicts,
married and unmarried, who just want a child.
And we grieve with them.

So we lift our hands to you,
on one hand those with whom we rejoice and bless,
on the other hand those with whom we weep.

Might you overwhelm our blessing
with your blessing, rich and full.
And might you break into our weeping,
surprising us with your grace.

-Glenn Pemberton
http://www.facebook.com/HurtingWithGod

need help finding articles about girls death PLEASE HELP!

Twobuggysmommy — Mon, 29 Apr 2013 21:12:44 -0600

I just found out that the little girl( 6 months old) 2 doors down to us drowned in the bathtub a few days ago. I'm needing to find any or all articles about this incident. I'm on my phone so I'm having problems searching, so if any of yall can PLEASE HELP FIND ANY ARTICLES OR MORE INFORMATION!

I'm trying to find out if we need to go to the police with some information we MIGHT have about that night. But don't wanna bring anymore problems to this family if it not needed.

We are in Seadrift,Tx the zip code is 77983. Nearby bigger towns are Victoria & Port Lavaca(we are in such a small town, so it might be in their papers or something)

Thank you mommies!

Back to work

SkyInLine — Thu, 09 May 2013 19:12:36 -0600

Hi. I am a stay at home mom for the last 2 years. The thing is that it's time for me to get back to work.
I have a job interview the following Monday and I'm pretty confident im going to get the job.
Now the worrying part is that my child is very attached to me, as I am to him. He hasn't been in a childcare and rarely stayed with a babysitter. I am planning to put him in a creche as soon as possible, probably in a week time max.. I'm afraid that after two years of being there for him every day he might feel like I have abandoned him if suddenly I just go away for the whole day and just leave him with in care of some strangers.. He is very sociable and happy little boy, but whenever he gets tired if I'm not there or his daddy its like all hell is loose..

I know that he probably will cry for first few days and then he'll absolutely love it, but I can't help but have the worst thoughts..

Need Smojo! Job interview tomorrow!

Dragonbabyx3 — Wed, 08 May 2013 15:19:20 -0600

I have a job interview tomorrow at 11am! I am so excited! I will be working for Retail Reign, I am fairly sure that it is the company that sends people to go to different stores to cold sell direct tv and other like things. Either way, you get a paycheck and commission. That makes me happy! I need this so bad. We havent had sugar, bread, milk, coffee, etc for the last week... I NEED this job. Please cross your fingers that I get this!

c25k questions and suggestions

hippiekins — Thu, 09 May 2013 16:23:35 -0600

So I've been hearing a lot about this "couch to 5k" program, or maybe it's an app? I'm not sure... But I've wanted to run a 5k since middle school. I joined cross country in highschool and unfortunately was hit by a car and had my knee all jacked up before I ever had the chance to run one. It's been ages since I've run anywhere... Except the bathroom... And I've gained a lot of weight since highschool but I miss the feeling running gave me and would love to get back into it. I'm thinking come June when I can finally (hopefully) get my anxiety under control I'd like to start again using the c25k program. I figure it could help me lose weight, get me out of the house and possibly help my mood. Only downside I can think of is it'll be super hot out come June and I won't want to go outside... Thoughts? Anyone hear of or use the c25k app/program? Do you think I'm setting myself up for failure? I think it would be so cool if I could actually stick with something, follow through and finally run a 5k (I even have the one I want to do all picked out haha) dh says I can never commit to anything and although I secretly see it too I'd like to prove us both wrong... Can I actually do this?

In ER with DD- Updated again! and again!!!

Birdie — Mon, 06 May 2013 14:06:33 -0600

Possible broken arm. She's hurting. Please send prayers her way!

Fuckeritis epidemic! Rant

Strawberry — Thu, 09 May 2013 09:46:36 -0600

Yes it's official! I just declared dh Completly impaired since he seems to have gotten a severe case of fuckeritis!! Or maybe it was assholism! Or maybe douchcanoeitis! Which ever one it is hes getting on my last nerve! Uuggghhhh!!!

I usually like to be quite affectionate towards him, you know, a hug from out of nowhere, or an I love you babe just for the fun of it. But its like if only I give but don't Recieve! And yeah in this case I'm not buying the whole "it's better to give than Recieve" since it's a marriage it's supposed to come naturally from both sides!! Just this morning he was being so rude to me, talking to me like I'm another one of his kids! Sorry buddy but I'm not, so don't talk down to me! Also, If I ask a question, he'll respond with a annoyed tone or like if he's too busy to answer, or just a plain smart ass remark! He seem so distant from me lately. We haven't had sex since our anniversary, in march. Anytime I try and get close, he finds an excuse to move or brings the kids into the picture.
But the weird thing is that he will be all over me when he notices I'm starting to get distant and I'm not all aver him! But he does it in annoying way. For example hell try and grab my butt when I'm really busy or he will nibble at my shoulders when I'm sitting down next to him but not paying attention to him, like when I'm on SM! I'm not about to stop doing what I need to do or what i want to do just to baby him all the time and give him my undivided attention! I have a household to maintain and three little ones that are running circles around me most of the time. I've come to point in our relationship that I will get really distant when he treats me like this(bc it's not the first time) then things blow up, I tell him how I feel, and then things change for a few days sometimes weeks, but I still feel horrible bc I don't see the point of me having to explode everytime instead of us continually trying to better our relationship!

*Sighs*
Rant over. I'm sorry it's so long. Thank you for listening!