My 39 year old aunt passed away yesterday morning in her sleep. She has had health problems for years and was taking 14 pills a day. She had just talked to the doctors in the past month and they diagnosed her with a disease (that I can't remember the name of) that could kill her at anytime. I'm glad that I was able to at least talk to her a few weeks ago (even though it was over the phone) and tell her I was expecting. She was excited. She loves my son to pieces and was hoping I had a little girl this time.

My mom called me yesterday afternoon about 10 minutes into DS1.5's nap. She asked me if my neighbor was home. After I told her she was, she told me to get Felix, go over there and to call her back. I asked her why, but she told me to just do it. I did like she asked. Julie was asleep (she has bad migraines, so she was trying to sleep it off), and after not being able to wake her up (she later told me she took some of her medicine to help her sleep) I called my mom. She asked me if I was at Julies, I said yes, but she's asleep. She asked me again if I was at Julie's, I told her yes. She then asks if I'm setting down. I assure her I am and have Felix in my lap. She then goes on to tell me that my Aunt Steph, her baby sister, passed away in her sleep that morning. I didn't believe it. I thought for sure she was going to tell me her dog had passed away bc they have been thinking of putting him down bc of his health issues. She made me promise to call DH and have him come home and sit with me so I wasn't alone and to not worry about going to the funeral bc it was going to be 4 hours away and she was afraid how I would react. She was/is afraid I'd lose the baby that's on the way.

I kept half of my promise. I called my DH at work and asked him how busy it was (he works at a tire & auto center). He said it wasn't to bad and wanted to know why I asked. I filled him in and asked if me and DS could sit up at the shop until he got off work. At this point I'm sobbing. He says that its almost his turn to go on lunch and he'd come out and get me bc he didn't want me driving. 

I finally get a hold of my mom after she makes it up to where my aunt lived and told me it will be at least a week before they can schedule the funeral bc her body has been shipped away for an autopsy bc she was so young. I don't know what to think. DH offered to either take me up so I can go to the funeral or let me and DS go with my parents after they get back while he works. I'm not sure if I should go. I don't know if I even want to go. I was very very close to this aunt and want to remember her the way she was; full of life and love. I want closure, but not sure how to go about it.

Can someone please help me with this?