@itgetsbetter You're sweet. I actually am really proud. Congrats yourself on getting clean. I totally get it re: wonder how you are still alive, me too. I remember I had major issues with my bladder in those first few weeks after I got off the shit. Went to the emergency room because the situation got so bad and told the doctor about the detox (that I did in an effing mice infested apartment alone) and my past drug use. My entire story was quite sordid and complicated so basically I expected judgement and I got the opposite. She told me I was amazing and that I did something that many can't do on their own. She encouraged me to tell a family member, which I did a few months later. A nurse hugged me. They arranged for a doctor to help me. I hope the OC realizes that there are people who can really help her get through it. And that she has enough strength to do it.