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I think I want a divorce
  • scholarmom4
    Posts: 547Member
    Dh and I got married after dating for 6 months. In a lot of ways he is a great guy. We have been together for six years now and I keep wondering if this is all there is?? I really think I would be happier if I was single. We have absolutely nothing in common! NOTHING! Except of course, for the kids and the bills. That is the only thing we talk about. We never (and I mean NEVER) go anywhere or do anything. Most of our lives are very separate from each other. He works all day while I am home with the kids (I am in school full time too) and I talk to him for about 30 min tops, then we get dinner and get the kids to bed. He then goes out to his car to smoke a cigar (the only place that I allow it) and to talk on the phone to his friends, parents, sister's etc. Then he comes in, has something to eat (this is at about 10pm) and goes to the bedroom and passes out. If I try to initiate sex, about 9 times out of 10 he tells me that he is tired and has to get up early for work and to leave him alone! Yet, if I ask him if he is happy with the way things are, he says yes!!!! He tells me that he loves me/still in love with me, finds me attractive blah, blah, blah. He actually seems like he is happy with our relationship. I am not!! It is boring, annoying and lonely as hell. I really think that I am done with this. I have tried really hard and he is putting forth zero effort. I am sick of it. I was happier and had a ton more energy, fun and friends when I was a single mom with two children. I really feel like I am fed up  and do not want this to be the rest of my life. I tell him how I feel and he of course says what he thinks I want to hear and then nothing changes. He isn't a bad guy, but I am not happy.
  • vintkey78vintkey78
    Posts: 324Member
    >:D< to you cause I'm feeling the same today.
  • scholarmom4
    Posts: 547Member
    Thanks!! I am just unhappy and lonely. This is not the type of relationship I thought that we would have and he is perfectly fine with it! I am not, and I am seriously doubting whether or not I can do this for another six years. I just want to be happy! I don't even have to have a boyfriend! Or another dh. I like being single! I just want to know that I like my life and who I am. I don't want to be married and lonely. I can be alone for that!! :)
  • AloneOverseasAloneOverseas
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    What about trying marriage counselling first to help him see how unhappy you are? If he doesn't see it and understand it, things probably won't change.
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  • scholarmom4
    Posts: 547Member
    We have tried before, but he just gets mad and it hurts his feelings if I tell him that I'm not happy. I am not sure what to do. I do love him, just not willing to give up the rest of my life for a so-so marriage. :(
  • PurpleFlowersPurpleFlowers
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    Im right there with you. Dh and I are separated... for the 3rd time. He was/is happy with the way things are, but Im not. I didnt see myself being unhappy for the rest of my life. I like having my freedom and nobody to tell me what to do or how I can or cant spend MY money. Im here if you need to vent @scholarmom4
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  • scholarmom4
    Posts: 547Member
    Aww!! Thanks @PurpleFlowers!! I love him. But I don't want to be alone all day long with kids and then only have him spend about a half hour with me. That just sucks! I really think he is fine with it too!! I tell him how I feel and he acknowledges it and try's to change his behavior for about a couple of weeks and then it is right back to the same old thing. I don't like being lonely when I am married!! I had that with the ex and it sucked! I don't want that again. Not sure what to do. In a lot of respects he is a really good husband and he is a great dad! He's not mean or cheap or rude or abusive in any way, he just isn't there. Not sure what to do... :(
  • PurpleFlowersPurpleFlowers
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    I could have wrote that exactly except that Im not a SAHM. Mine is a really nice guy, good dad, etc. We tried counseling and it just got him mad and more depressed. >:D<
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  • momof4momof4
    Posts: 323Member
    ok ladies I have a wonderful book for you to try!! I have it and am currently reading/using it myself and so far it seems to work!!! HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR MARRIAGE WITHOUT TALKING ABOUT IT by: patricia love ed.d and steven stosny ph d. you can get it off barnes and noble for about 10.00. was recommended by a phyciatrist(sp) friend.
  • DreamerDreamer
    Posts: 2,266Member

    My sister is reading this book right now and loving it @momof4

    There are some people who live in a dream world, and there are some who face reality; and then there are those who turn one into the other. Which one are you?
  • momof4momof4
    Posts: 323Member
    Dreamer said:

    My sister is reading this book right now and loving it @momof4



    it's great and i never would have thought about the stuff talked about in the book. i purposely left it out where hubby could find it and he even read some of it :-)  we weren't having any major problems but wanted stuff to read before it got that far!! even thow we weren't at major problems it's even helped us and we've gotten closer. been with my dh 14 years in oct. and still very much in love with him and can't picture my life without him or even with someone else!! 
  • Peace
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    Can you get a sitter for one night a week & try date nights?
    Avoid discussing the kids, finances, etc., & just go have some fun together?
    Any small steps towards reconnecting might help...good luck...
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  • scholarmom4
    Posts: 547Member
    We got into a fight last night and he said he could care less if he stayed or left. Then he actually left. I am not stressed about that, but I am a SAHM. I am so worried about cash. I told him that there was no way I would allow him to leave me penniless! I swear to God, I will take his ass to court if I have to. He will pay the bills and buy food until I have a job. Not sure what is going on right now... :(
  • DreamerDreamer
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    @scholarmom4    I am sorry you're going through this. It sucks ass. 

     

    And I dunno. Is it different in the states, can the men just leave and NOT have to pay you?  Or maybe I was just lucky and my X manned up and did pay.

    There are some people who live in a dream world, and there are some who face reality; and then there are those who turn one into the other. Which one are you?
  • scholarmom4
    Posts: 547Member
    I can def take him to court and make him pay bills until I get a job. There is a prescedent. I have been a SAHM for five years while he has paid the bills. SO if I have to do it, I will. :)
  • TrEr02TrEr02
    Posts: 687Member
    coming from a divorced home I really wish my parents would have tried everything before calling it quits. I deff feel for you though, Im alone alot because of my hubbys hours at work and I know how damn lonely it gets. I would really try to work hard with him beofre you make up your mind. I wish you the best of luck and I hope things work out..I may get that book for myself lol
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