193432 - 6mg of xanax

insomniamom

I don't know how to copy the confession with my phone but I've been thinking about the OC since I read it. I don't know if 6 mg of Xanax is enough to kill you or if you meant it to, I don't know you but I believe most of us have been in a tough spot and it's always nice to know someone out there cares.
Dear OC I care for you and sincerely hope you are ok. Please hang in there. I don't support hitting kids but you obviously made a mistake and regret it, you lost it but you are NOT a monster. Talk to your kid, no matter how old he/she is and ask for forgiveness.
Lots of light for you.

Peace

Smacked my DD harder then I thought on the butt and left a small bruise. I feel awful, DF called me a monster and left. 6 mg of Xanax and I'm off to sleep. I just hope it isn't my kids who find me in the morning.

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Peace

OC, I hope you're alright... >:D<
Please use the resources link & reach out for help. You not being there for your daughter
is what would hurt her the most. You lost your temper. Today you'll do better.

Thanks @insomniamom & welcome!

BookMum

Probably not enough to kill you DIRECTLY but easily enough to kill you indirectly. For example being so zonked out that if you vomit youre not able to cough or clear your airways. I saw that confession too and it was disturbing. I hope shes alright.

WildandFree

This post pissed me off.

BellaBefana

@MellowYellow: how so?

WildandFree

Just reminds me of an ex friend who used to post stuff like this on Facebook all the time looking for attention. She'd say daily (and I mean for months on end) what a terrible person and worthless person she was and how she was going to kill herself. I'd try to offer support and be kind and tell her what a good person she was but after a while it's like ok.. Time to talk to someone, get some help or go fucking do it because posting it every day on Facebook is getting old. I ended up deleting her because she refused to try any sort of help and just kept telling us she was going to kill herself and how she hated that people stopped posted comments of support etc.

I'm not trying to be mean or not supportive. It just sounded exactly like her and instantly raised my hackles.

Sorry OC. I hope you get help.

BellaBefana

Yeah, I get that, when you know someone who pulls crap like that, it can desensitize you to real cries for help. I get really upset when I see people with children making these kinds of statements. My 3 baby cousins found their daddy in a pool of blood...the oldest at the time was about 8ish...quite frankly, that one moment in time defined who they are as men today, and not exactly in a good way.

OC, please don't do this to your children, don't leave that kind of legacy for them.

goldie

That's a lot of xanax to take at once. I've been on it for 20 years and the most I would take is 4mg maybe in an extreme situation. Hope OC is ok.

lovinmom

That's awful! I hope you're ok op. Everyone gets to a point that they regret doing something. Your human you feel bad for what you did. If you didn't then that's a different story. Maybe time to find someone who values you instead of pushing you to hurt yourself.

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MarySunshine

I know who this is.

Damnit.

Talk to me.

And don't ask me to share who it is. I'm not sharing unless they give me the ok. There's a lot going in their life right now...this the straw and they are the camel.

Pigeon

OC, I have to agree with @MammaTeeRoll , your DF is being an asshole and obviously doesn't think you're a monster if he was willing to leave you alone with the kids. Things may be incredibly difficult and you may feel like there's nothing else left for you, but I hope you check out the resource page or talk to somebody you trust. Either way, this would be a good time to reach out to somebody and ask for help. >:D< I hope things get better for you.

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MarySunshine

I told her that yesterday. There is a lot more than that incident going on.

She's not answering her phone...two rings and it went to voicemail. I left a text and FB message, too.

I really, really, really hope nothing has happened. I'm on the fence about contacting DF. I don't know what he'll do or say. He might just get pissed at me for sticking my nose in their business...

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MarySunshine

I could try. I have to look up the sheriffs in her area.

I wish I still had her DF's #....lost it when other phone died.

If he's at his mom's then he's like one house away from hers...

BellaBefana

glad to know there's someone who can check on her @CallieFlower82. I don't blame you for not wanting to break a confidence, but please let her know we're here and we care!

MarySunshine

I sent a message on FB to her DF. Fuck him if he gets pissed at me. He and I have been friends forever and he can suck my dick.

LesboMom

oh wow!!! @callieflower82 - maybe point her in this direction so that she can see that we all mess up and that there is a community of women supporting her.

pdxmama

@callieflower82 please let her know that we are all here for her, and to come back and let us support her!

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MarySunshine

Spoke to her on the phone!

All is well relatively well. She's ok. Saw the doctor and is back on medication to help with her illness, as well as her bipolar.

But I'll be keeping major tabs on her for the rest of the week.

I will share your support with her!

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