These Chickens, This Life

Corbyn Hanson Hightower

Corbyn Hanson Hightower

Corbyn Hanson Hightower is a forty-one year old mother-of-three who likes to write poetic essays about life as a creative and free-spirited mom living in post-Recession simplicity and colorful poverty. She is hoping to publish a memoir. Read more here.
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One night last fall, my husband defended our chickens against an invading possum, armed with a sword and wearing night vision goggles, holding a flashlight and hooting like a madman in the darkness. I was standing on the shabby backyard deck observing, holding a baby on my hip while the rain fell, and the wind whipped my thin white nightgown around my legs. I wouldn’t have heard the scrabble and squawk of hens in danger, but my husband sleeps lightly, ever alert, and he roused me for back up. I wonder if he also wanted me to witness his work here; defending our home from attack. My gentle husband, who gets precious little opportunity to rescue us.

 

My husband was a stay-at-home dad for years, while I was out working in sales. His skills in information technology slipped farther and farther into obsolescence, but he quietly became the parent the toddlers cried for when hurt or sleepy. I pumped my breast milk at hotels and in the bathrooms at trade shows, and brought it home to him in freezer bags. When my commissions vanished, he lined up with scores of hopeful applicants at the most menial of jobs, and went through a series of interviews after which he landed a something that paid barely over minimum wage, and we were so grateful. We would have insurance. He was tearful in his quiet, strong way the night before he’d be leaving the kids for the first time. He almost never complains about his work, just says, “today was hard,” if I ask. He leaves it at that.

 

After that close call with the possum and the chickens, we started placing a big stone at the entrance to the coop each evening after they all make their way inside. Every evening, right as dusk sets and the western sun has dipped below the windows and the house is no longer filled with that golden light, the hens enter one by one, acting like they’ve only just thought of it, as though each time is their first: Hey, here’s an idea: why don’t we go into this here coop? No, after you.

 

We’ve come to rely on the eggs, and consistently get four or five a day. Dried beans can become monotonous, so this is thrilling reprieve. Scrambled, hard-boiled, poached, stirred into ramen noodles, mixed into pancakes that are more egg than flour—we’ve done it all. They skirt the rules our landlord has about no pets, as they’re not fur-bearing and they don’t live inside. Mostly they eat what they forage in the big backyard, which we’ve now turned over to them after futile efforts to control and contain the poop situation. They gather beneath the window when they hear it slide open, knowing to expect the pinched-off bits of stale heels of bread, and half-eaten apples that have turned brown sitting on the coffee table. They love watermelon rinds, and will pick at them until the striped green skin that’s left looks like a popped balloon, puckered and flimsy. It’s important nothing go to waste.

 

And it was last weekend that my husband and I crawled along the perimeter of the house, searching for rat holes we could block with wadded-up steel wool. They’re starting to pilfer the feed, and we can’t have them threatening egg production. The ants in the upstairs bathroom are of little concern to me. I look at them as I would look at dirt that moves, which doesn’t sound enlightened at all. But we have forged an uneasy peace. If they happen to make their way into the shower stall, they will feel the fatal sting of Dr. Bronner’s Peppermint Soap, otherwise they are free to take shelter from the wet and cold along these baseboards. I address them with grudging tolerance. I see you’re still here. If you make your way to the kitchen, there will be trouble.

 

We have come a distance from our pristine life of suburban affluence, and when I look around at this crumbling underpriced rental that has provided harbour, it’s hard to remember what we had before. And now: the train whistle, the rowdy hoboes, our apple tree, our orange tree, the vegetables in the front yard, these chickens.

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1 dysfunctional mom August 9, 2011 at 12:37 am

I am just in awe of this post. So well written and yet plainly stated.
A quote that is always floating around in my head comes to mind: “I wish you enough”.

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2 Anthony from CharismaticKid August 9, 2011 at 12:37 am

Wait… at first I thought you lived on a farm the way the story was going… but now you have a landlord with a no pet rule and you are finding loopholes to have fresh backyard-raised eggs?

You guys rock.

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3 Life with Kaishon August 9, 2011 at 1:16 am

Oh my.
What a difficult existence. I hope things get better for you soon.
Very soon.
We had chickens when we were growing up. I don’t think we needed the eggs, my Daddy just wanted to be a farmer.

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4 Tina Sutherland August 9, 2011 at 1:19 am

I just have to add that one phrase, “dirt that moves” has changed my mind about ants forever. We live in an RV and recently had such an invasion (stay out of Texas!), but I will be calmer when they come back due to your enlightened view.
And good luck to the chickens!
Tina

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5 Wendy August 9, 2011 at 2:30 am

Your writing is beautiful. I also hope things get easier for you; I also look forward to reading more of your writing!

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6 Mel August 9, 2011 at 7:31 am

You have a lovely way with words; I felt absolutely transported to your back yard with you. How awesome that you all are surviving together and remaining a family even though financial times have become hard. Not everyone could do it.

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7 lauren scheuer August 9, 2011 at 7:34 am

Thank you, Corbyn, for your beautiful story.

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8 Erin August 9, 2011 at 7:44 am

wow. this is beautifully written and extremely touching. It certainly puts things back into perspective.

I wish you a streak of good luck and all the love in the world~~

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9 mommy23girls August 9, 2011 at 7:54 am

Wishing you all the best and that the rats and possoms stay away!
Thank you for sharing your touching story with us!

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10 crazypants August 9, 2011 at 9:45 am

Beautifully written, and just gave me a serious check to get my gratefulness in order. Thank you for this.

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11 knotty daughters August 9, 2011 at 9:50 am

Chickens. So much to learned from chickens, they really are part of the family.

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12 Marta August 9, 2011 at 9:53 am

The writing was amazing. I could keep reading more and more and I will!

I wish you tons of luck!

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13 Rachel August 9, 2011 at 9:54 am

I grew up very much like you are living now. We barely got by from day to day and relied heavily on food we grew or raised ourselves. This life is very hard and I hope you and your family soon find more stable ground to build your lives on. On a brighter note, your children will likely have a greater appreciation for all that life offers them. Good luck on getting published.

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14 JINNI August 9, 2011 at 9:58 am

You should write a book, your writing has such an elegance that make your readers want to continue on, then feel bumed when they reach the end of you story.

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15 Jane Quick August 9, 2011 at 10:04 am

You have a truely beautiful way with words. To be able to turn the mundane into poetry is a gift I am most envious of. I will keep my eye out for more of your work.

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16 heather clark August 9, 2011 at 10:07 am

thai curry noodle. rice noodles, egg, lots of green onion (i snip the tops &plant the roots in the garden), a couple chilis, red or green curry & coconut milk. some lime squeeze. totally different take on egg.
best of luck with everything. wishing you & the chickens all the best.

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17 heather clark August 9, 2011 at 10:08 am

oh–i read somewhere possums& rats don’t like the smell of vinegar. not sure how chickens feel about it.

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18 Megan August 9, 2011 at 10:22 am

Wow can I relate to you and your story. To think two years ago I was living in a 4500 sq ft house and today I live in a one bedroom apartment with my two kids. We (your family and mine) do what we have to to get by. It’s not always easy. It’s not always pleasant, but it’s when we can look at even the little things with wonder and excitement that it makes it all worth it. When you can share this amazing life with us it gives us a moment to pause and reflect on the recessions effect on everyone, not just ourselves. Thank you.

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19 Julie August 9, 2011 at 10:22 am

Thank you, Corbyn. You are rich in talent and character for sure…can’t wait to read more.

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20 Amanda August 9, 2011 at 10:32 am

I agree with dysfunctional mom-I wish you enough. We as a society have become indoctrinated to the idea that if we have more or plenty than that is what is necessary for happiness. When really all we need is enough. Yes it is harder. But as someone who has lived this way my whole life (31yrs) I promise that it only makes your entire family unit closer than you can imagine and closer than most of the families who have plenty-plenty of space, toys, food,etc.

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21 Amy I. Bloom August 9, 2011 at 10:49 am

You are a lovely writer. I hope your writing brings you satisfaction, peace, and yes, lots of money someday soon.

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22 christy August 9, 2011 at 11:21 am

What a beautifully written post. I hope things get easier for you soon – you should submit your work to magazines! I’d love to see you as a columnist!

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23 Jennifer Ford August 9, 2011 at 11:23 am

I love me some Corbyn Hanson Hightower! Scary Mommy, you should feature her more often. :)

Not only is Corbyn’s writing voice engaging (and somehow soothing), her subject matter always leaves me feeling convicted and inspired to do more with less.

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24 Katie August 9, 2011 at 11:58 am

You shared my sentiments so much more poignantly than I could. Reading her work does make me want to do more with less.

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25 Kristie August 9, 2011 at 11:24 am

Great post. My mom has chickens and my girls and I adore them. My 4 year old would live on scrambled eggs if we’d let her. Props to your hubby for defending his roost.

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26 Michelle Painter August 9, 2011 at 11:41 am

Wow. Just wow. So beautifully written; I felt like I was right there on that deck, watching her husband battle. Just amazing.

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27 MelissaThinks August 9, 2011 at 1:35 pm

Your imagery is so powerful. I can see the chickens, the ants, your brave husband. I agree with all the other comments, your writing is beautiful. I suspect that is because it comes from a beautiful soul. I wish you and your family enough and overflowing joy.

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28 Jennifer August 9, 2011 at 1:49 pm

This post is lyrical. I could almost hear music playing in the background as I read it. Truly beautiful and real. Thanks for sharing a piece of your story.

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29 Ally August 9, 2011 at 6:40 pm

Wonderful writing. You say so much – I wish more could read it.

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30 Devan @ Accustomed Chaos August 9, 2011 at 7:55 pm

wow. such beautiful writing.

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31 Ruth August 9, 2011 at 8:34 pm

First, I love your name. I named my son Corbin and it holds a special place in my heart as he passed away two months ago.

Your writing is so smooth and effortless. I could feel the wind and hear the chickens. And the visual of your husband! I loved that!

Great job.

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32 Jeanine August 9, 2011 at 9:42 pm

I think you have a lot to say about the state of our lives at this time in history. You say it simplistically, using the chickens to show that many of us are in a far different place than we once were. It is disheartening in so many ways, yet you show, & we all eventually know that we have to accept our situations as they come. I have a feeling you and I have followed a similar path. Though our circumstances may differ somewhat, I know what it is like to look up and see a whole different world out your window (your rental window). You continue to roll with the punches, but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt. I appreciate your post very much.

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33 Leisl August 9, 2011 at 9:49 pm

We are the sum of our experiences in life. It sounds like u and yours are quite something! And at the end of the day, a man is still a man and needs reassuring that he’s being the man & protecting his own. What a beautiful way to hOnour your man

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34 Ninja Mom August 9, 2011 at 11:07 pm

Beautifully done. You’ve got a gift.

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35 SL Schildan August 9, 2011 at 11:34 pm

Your story was so engaging, that I frantically hunted for the MORE button when I got to the bottom of the page. It was with great disappointment that I discovered that was all. It was exactly what you were trying to tell us: It Was Enough.

Thank you. Hugs, Shari

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36 Corbyn Hightower August 10, 2011 at 1:39 am

Shari, thank you so much for your kind words! More of my writing can be found on my website, http://www.corbynhightower.com. Again, thank you. xo

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37 Kika August 10, 2011 at 2:04 am

Incredibly engaging. As i read it, I felt like I was standing there with you as your husband protected the roost. Thanks so much for this beautiful piece, look forward to reading more.

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38 Michelle Saunderson August 10, 2011 at 7:33 am

Love it. I suddenly have a desire to raise chickens….

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39 Greenrubyroses August 10, 2011 at 4:11 pm

Most interesting story…I loved it! Keep writing and best of luck!

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40 Jenny August 10, 2011 at 5:03 pm

I really enjoyed reading this! I’m thinking about following you on Twitter.

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41 Corbyn Hightower August 10, 2011 at 8:29 pm

Follow me on Facebook instead! I rarely post on Twitter.

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42 Jenny August 11, 2011 at 12:48 pm

alright, how can I find you there?

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43 Corbyn Hightower August 15, 2011 at 9:26 pm

I’m sorry for the delay; have you found me? I operate on Facebook under the name Corbyn Hanson Hightower. (I’m so stealth! ha!) I’m quite active there, so you may want to hide my posts after awhile . . .
Corbyn Hightower recently posted..I Fell in Love With You

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44 anonymouslyyours August 11, 2011 at 1:09 am

We’re on the brink of our own recession too. I loved this enough to give a few dollars ~ because I’m feeling “rich” right now, even in my state of being broke. Thank you, Corbyn. ;)

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45 Logan June 27, 2012 at 3:02 pm

Hi Corbyn–I came across your article in Nation of Change on your rental house. You write with a wonderful mixture of poignancy and humor–reminiscent, to me, of the inimitable Anne Lamott. Please keep writing–and know that these–as well as all circumstances–bear fruit in time. Best, Logan

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46 JennysNook June 28, 2012 at 11:32 am

Sometimes it’s good to hear about other people’s difficulties. It’s reassuring to know that I’m not the only one who has them. Thanks for such a real blog entry. It’s raw and beautifully written. I love your writing. I was totally there in your backyard with you while reading that.

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