CONFESSIONAL

I've never fucked a hot guy in my life. Not even once. And I wasn't always the fat, old slob I am now.

I think if I died my in-laws would all celebrate secretly because they despise me but don’t know me but continue their fake ness for my H

DH has a rage problem. No one else knows. I’m currently listening to him swear while working on a house project and even though it’s not directed at me, my stomach hurts and heart is racing.

I love my Husband, I truly do. He's a great man, but I can't help but day dream about the 'what ifs' with men from my past.

DH and I give each other “free” time on sundays (no kids). DH will be spending his watching football. I will be spending mine cleaning the house. I could do something else, but then the house will be trashed to start the week, and I don’t want that. Ugh

I absolutely hate hanging out with H and his friends. I don’t know the person he turns into when he’s around them.

I feel like a fucking champ for serving up a healthy and balanced meal for my daughter and me!

I wish all my in laws knew how much I encourage the relationship w my husband and my kids. I’m not he barrier or ever would be. Wish they thought I was so good for him

My wedding anniversary is on Tuesday. Husband asks if I wanteed to go out to dinner. Hell no, asshole. You ignore me all year, but on our anniversary you want to pretend your this awesome husband. No thank you.

H doesn’t get it. I’m not still upset about disagreement but if you tell me to shut the fuck up or call me a bitch in front of our kids...and don’t understand why I’m still so mad, hurt then we have a bigger problem. Time to call the marriage therapist

I hate my life as a mom. I feel myself being so mean to my kids all the time but I can’t help it. I harbor so much resentment towards them and I never get a single second to myself. I want to disappear.

On day my kids are going to ask me if I wanted to be a mom... how will I answer? Honestly? No, I didn’t. I felt forced into this hell by your dad and society. NEVER force a woman into having kids that doesn’t want them. It makes her suicidal.

H has been trying to gaslight me in a variety of ways for months now. Not sure why, but jokes on him, IDGAF about him, so his efforts are wasted

I'm going to focus solely on my health, making money and paying off/staying out of debt, and my new boyfriend. 2021 is going to be my fucking year!

I'm feeling hopeless right now. I just need to make ends meet.

Anytime I bring up something DH did that hurt my feelings he justifies it while apologizing & if I stay upset says he can’t win cause no apology is enough. It’s gaslighting in truest victim form & I’m now onto it

I hate how I look and I hate how I feel.

I wish I’d been brave enough years ago to realize I wasn’t cut out to have kids. Love them but I am a shitty mom. Just too selfish. Most days are a struggle and I’m sure they are going to be scarred.

I spend a little time every day daydreaming and fantasizing about a completely fictitious and out of reach life. My real life is decent but I just feel like everything was supposed to be more beautiful than this.

I feel lonely, alone, exhausted, and hopeless.

Sometimes I leave little things that need to be done or picked up to see how long before H will do them. The answer is never. He will never do them. He's useless.

I wish I got covid to get away from my family temporarily or permanently

I’ve been keeping my friendships alive for years. I finally stopped trying and only two friends keep in touch with me. While it hurts that some have left I’m relieved that I’m not working so hard at friendships anymore.

Told DH my lower back hurt. He said "if you got rid of that spare tire it probably wouldn't hurt so much" im officially going to crawl back in my hole and die.

While they seem happy & fairly well-adjusted now, my biggest fear is that my kids will look back in 10, 20, 30 years, realize I wasn't that good of a mother, and end up hating me.

I find it sad the reason my H would call or text my ILs and SIL because I reminded him to. They think is because of me he doesn’t but they are wrong as recently stopped reminding him because I’ve realized they hate me and always assume the worst

I’m enjoying these last final days of being pregnant. Everyone else is impatient for the baby to arrive but I’m savouring the feeling of having him/her inside me!

After years of begging H to put effort into our marriage I’m ready to walk away. Of course now he wants to try. I don’t know how to tell him I have no feelings left for him. Plus, I’m in love w/someone else. Even though I’ll never get to have that person.

I'm scared my ex will kill me.

I love dogs but I think doodles look really stupid.

Had a dream that I told H to stop doing something but used exAP's name. So glad it was just a dream.

Leaked period blood really bad at work, soaked through my underwear and pants. Then a couple hours later leaked again worse. Spent the rest of the day standing so I wouldn’t leave blood on a work chair. Ugh. At least I was in black pants.

DH screamed in my face when I called him out for not doing shit around our house. If he dies young, I’ll breathe the biggest sigh of relief. He ruined me for all other men..because I NEVER want to put up with a man’s bullshit again.

I’m falling in love with a single dad and I’m nervous, happy, and hopeful

This dude is the real deal. We are connected on another level. Scared and so happy at the same time

I'm that scapegoat child who refused to destroy my health with stress of taking care of my mom when she got sick. I stepped all the way back & made her golden children do it. Oh, the butt-hurt and the rage, tho. I STILL DGAF. 10 years later. No regrets.

i over eat when i leave work , i realized that going home to my kids IS my stressor. if im not over eating , im drinking to relieve the stress.

I was born into poverty, unwanted, and abused regularly. It makes me wonder what terrible thing I did in a past life to deserve it.

I find it humiliating that I have to ask DS17 what he thinks DW would like to do for her birthday (I want it to be a surprise for her) because he would know better than I. In the past few yrs, he's replaced me as her best friend, confidant, and companion.

It's not that I expected to have a perfect mother or even a great mother. Just a less shitty one would have been fine with me.