Woke up feeling normal, had to go but no terrible urgency. On the way to the bathroom, suddenly liquid diarrhea is dribbling out of my asshole, all over my robe, fur slippers, my legs, and the kitchen floor. WTF? So gross...
Treated the family to lunch at Dairy Queen. Burgers, fries, sundaes, all of it. Everyone was happy & said thank you except for H. He complained that there were pickles on his burger. I could've strangled him! Ungrateful overgrown brat. Un-fucking-real.
When choosing a lawyer to represent me, I didn't go for the one with the biggest firms or degrees from the most prestigious schools - I went for the one who is golfing buddies with the most judges and prosecutors.
DS16 showed me a Youtube video of a specially licensed keeper of venomous snakes unboxing a black mamba (one of the fasted and deadliest snakes in the world) he just bought from a breeder. DS said "That's COOL!" I said "No - that's effing insane!"
DH bought me crappy Christmas gifts (as always). We returned them (they didn't work/fit), and now have some Amazon credit. He's already spent most of it on himself, and when I asked if we could use it to buy kiddo a mattress, he hemmed/hawed. Pissed.
I saw my counselor last night and she said the next time I see her she wants me to have a list of things I like and want because I've been just a wife and mom for too long, taking care of everyone but myself. I have absolutely no idea what to write down.
Parents judge me for not being thin enough. I start going to a gym, instructor judges me for not being fast enough. I get home, husband judges me for eating a very small snack. Seriously, people – take a look at yourselves.
years later and still torn between hating him/ wanting divorce to full love and hope of a better future- i hate being so fucked in the ehad that I dont know what is real or not anymore, Im so lost i dont know where to be
Ive had the papers for amonth, i stopped trying for year(s) but now at the fork in the road im not sure if i dont love him enough to actually try one last time and let me emotions lead instead of my head. He begs for emotion, all i have is anger or numb
Received a letter from daycare subsidy program saying they revised my subsidy amount and the amount I am now responsible to pay to daycare is my entire 2 week check. 2nd entire check goes to rent/utilities. Guess we no longer eat?
I am just going to try to be loving and positive , that's the best I can do. In september I had letters ready and was planning on ending my life. I am so relieved that I didn't. I love my kids and my partner and myself. Fuck everyone else though lol
On the way to school today, I lost my shit. On myself. Due to my kids. I am probably depressed. I’m so stressed out. In the same trip, my kid said he knew I hated him. I hate his behavior, not him, but how can he see that?
Work from home. Do not think of H while he's at his job until he texts, and after answering those I immediately forget about him again. M-F, 8-12 hours a day, or any time he's away, I live as though I'm still happily single. Marriage is a prison.
In a moment of vulnerability a few weeks ago I told DH that I was depressed & had begun seeing a therapist. I initially didn't wanna tell him so he couldn't throw it in my face. Well, that's exactly what he did 2 days ago. I officially hate him now.
My dh of 18 years been having a affair w his mother this yr i finally had enough and kicked his ass to the curb hope u love her now lol w all the bs is gone im.happy im happy fuck to c**t mil enjoy him now u won and i dont care
I have orgasms and they feel good but they don't seem like other people's descriptions. Either I'm doing it wrong or I experience them differently. I certainly wouldn't make stupid choices with men or waste a PTO day just to have one.
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