CONFESSIONAL

I am ashamed to write this, but I am disappointed every time I see adult DS, because of all the weight he's gained. And I'm embarrassed. Besides, it's not like I'm thin or anything! Again, so ashamed.

Husband is taking me out for dinner. First time EVER that he's set up child care and everything. I should be more excited but our life is so fucking mundane. And so is my husband... **sigh**

I’m so sick of the lies. He acts like I don’t know. I’m not stupid. I’m just working on my out. But soon motherfucker. Soon. Lying sack of shit.

I realize this is petty, but it really bothers me that my adult dd just walks into my house when she comes over, instead of knocking.

Being a SAHM is such a scam. I'm so trapped. Thank God I realized and just got a job.

Telly Savalas was one of the sexiest men to ever walk this earth.

I love my cats but if one of them escaped and ran away, I would never allow them back inside.

I don't care.

I wish size didn't matter but it does. It sucks because he's an amazing man, husband and father but dang I just want to be taken by a slightly above average sized cock rather than this thin average penis

H's family reunion is today. After last year I said I wasn't going since everyone ignored me. He talked me into going, I'm taking a blanket and a book. I'll sit by the lake alone reading.

Relationships suck. They are too complicated. I'm done. I'm staying single.

My 22 year old DD has such a smart a*s mouth! I'm NOT fond of her lately.

My therapist is the ONLY person I can share my feelings with. I was recentley told by a close loved one (durning a heartfelt chat) that I "share too much" & "I go on and on". I listen to them & don't complain. It all felt like a punch to the gut.

Thought we hit it off really well. I know we did. He said so. And wanted date #2. So...Hello...? What’s the damned hold-up?

I challenged h to be nice to me for 3 whole days. He couldn't do it. 2 of the days we worked opposite shifts and barely saw each other. He's an ass because he knows I can't afford to leave him.

Omg just found out my abusive ExH is tracking where I am by using Yesware on my email. I am so scared.

I want a divorce.

If H tells me my peri menopausal symptoms are all in my head again I will gouge his eyes out with a dirty spoon.

I was all set to enjoy a nice supper with H when we both got home from work. He came home in a shit mood so I put my self to bed without supper. I'd rather starve than be subjected to his BS.

My kids know I lied to them about a lot of big things.

I have a misunderstood lung disease. Soon as someone finds out, first thing they say is I never should have smoked. Funny thing is I never have smoked anything in my life. It's not always that way

I’m a super cheerleader for my kid’s school. I’m the first to toot their horn. This summer I found out a child abuser is working there... and the principal is trying to pull a power play against me to make sure it doesn’t get out.

Had my first hangover tonight. Puked everywhere. How the hell is this is considered fun?

SAHM here. Give my all day in & day out. When kids are asleep I indulge in 2+ glasses of wine per night. This doesn’t make me an alcoholic, it’s how I relax and decompress, & it DOESNT impact my abilities. Don’t judge, don’t lecture.

I haven’t had people in my house in years. My house is clean and organized, but I cannot stand having people in my space. Since I don’t know how to politely get rid of people, I’d rather not have them here at all.

I found out I’m underpaid by about $10k a year according to Glassdoor. I don’t feel bad about spending 3 hours on my phone today now.

Does anyone else’s ds6 grab you and jump on you? Just me? Thought so. Stop grabbing me, dammit!

The constant cleaning and lack of sleep is what fucks me up with parenting. When my home is clean and I can actually sleep I feel incredible.

home alone on a friday night with the kids. i never get a break from them. never. it makes me want to drink, which causes issues with DH b/c all i want to do is argue & fight. i cant win with anything. going fucking nuts.

finally admitting to myself that i have stayed for kids and money .will stay for last child and money still. i will be okay and i can continue to put up with cricticism and lackluster sex. i will do it for my kids wellbeing

When he threatens to leave, I wish he would just go. A lot of my life would be simpler. And I am not leaving, I built this life. If you are so miserable, LEAVE!

Went to have a dose of cannabis oil (legal where I live) and at least 3 doses came out all over the counter. Can't put it back so I ate it all. It will be interesting to see what happens in an hour when this triple dose kicks in.

Today I mediated an argument between my elderly mother and DS6. Pass the booze.

I recently made a job switch that allows me more time at home with my 9 month old. I now feel like I have no idea how to be a Mom.

I went in for my 7 week scan today. I measured 5weeks 6 days. I know for SURE that I had my dates correct and that this baby probably isn’t viable. My heart is so fucking broken. I just need some prayers or good vibes.

I hate that a man's "success" is boiled down to how gorgeous a woman he could "get," and a woman's "success" is base don how rich a man she was able to "get."

My teen dd is horrible. Just was extremely rude to my sweet mil, who has always been kind and generous to her.

Hate that part of being a parent these days is maintaining friendships for your kids, mostly via play dates. I’m an introvert, it’s a nightmare for me. When I was a kid, we ran around with neighborhood kids/just called our friends on the phone ourselves!

Don't know how I feel, about knowing I kept Dad out of the Vietnam war. His draft # was low enough to guarantee he'd be drafted, so Mom and Dad had me to get him a draft exemption. I kept him from getting drafted, but is that the ONLY reason I'm here?

I cut a friend out of my life for making bigoted comments about refugees. I don't give a fuck who you are. If you spout racist bullshit, you're done.