CONFESSIONAL

My FWB told me he has two friends who are interested in me and would like to make it a FOURSOME. I'm game! :)

I don't know why I keep trying. No one else is. When will I learn I have no worth?

Looked in the mirror & cried. I don't know this woman. Eyes are sunken from stress & exhaustion of raising 2dc alone. Hair is thin, skin is dull, anxious, alone, no breaks ever in 11 yrs. How can dh say he loves me & never help, so I can be a priority?

He can stay awake to play video games for hours.... but not to read a single damn board book to our 19mo DD19months. I’m upset for her. All she wants is to spend time with him.

I love my husband and kids more than anything. But I hate marriage and motherhood. The never ending obligation of it all takes all the enjoyment out of it.

I love SO with all my heart, but god help me - when she grinds her teeth at night I want to SMOTHER HER.

Nobody can see how badly I am drowning under all the pressure. Not my husband, not my mother. I feel like absolute shit.

I want a sky baby, which is ridiculous because I'm 43 and my youngest is 10. I don't need to start over...yet I keep hoping somehow I'll get a baby dropped in my lap.

I think dh likes to bitch. Because he can. I think it gets his juices flowing, blood moving, it just makes him feel GOOD. Why else would he do it so much?

Pretty sure I've got PTSD or something similar from listening to all the complaining in this house. It spikes my anxiety. It makes me want to curl up in a ball & stab myself in the ears with a knife.

I’m worried that my relationship with my best friend won’t survive his kids

It’s funny how diligent my MIL is at washing her granddaughter’s (her DD/my SIL) baby bottles but she’ll leave my daughter’s (also her granddaughter) bottles strewn all over the place and dirty after a feeding. I know cause they live with me.

I’m afraid of being hit by a stray bullet while in my house. Someone in my neighborhood likes to randomly shoot off illegal fireworks but right now I’m pretty sure I heard gunshots. I wish my bedroom and baby’s bedroom was bulletproof.

My 7 month old grandson scrunches up his face & cries every time he sees me. What in the actual fuck?

I don’t need to have kids in order to experience things being quiet until I need to do something, then everyone needing my attention RIGHT NOW. I already get that from my boss and coworkers.

We get one neighbor or another's mail accidentally put in our box 2-3x a year. I always take it to the correct house. It just hit me today - my mail must get misdirected too yet, in our 28 yrs in this house, NOBODY has ever given me MY mail. BASTARDS!!

I am stuffed and I feel disgusting, but that still isn't enough to stop me from lifting the fork to my mouth. I've nearly finished the whole cake. FML.

If I'd gotten every ass-kicking I deserved as a kid, I'd still be black and blue today - 30 years later.

i seriously despise my ex. that is all.

I always was and still am envious of people with very deep family ties to a town. How deeply must it feel like home to grow up where your family's lived for 6-7 generations and you go to school with your cousins? My family's scattered to the four winds.

DS2 is slowly talking more. He knows a lot of words - just chooses not to use them. Frustrating. DH & I celebrate a little with DS when he uses a new word to encourage him. Tonight’s new word - BOOGER. Never thought I would be happy about that lol!

Again and again and again Video games > sex You would think I would learn Nope Still ever the fool

I’m tired of my adopted 7 year old throwing a 2 yr old tantrum when he doesn’t get his wayHe hit his brother when we were on our way to get ice cream so I said no ice cream so then he wrapped his arm in the seatbelt until it turned purple and ate napkins

I just finished watching the 2nd season of Big Little Lies. I wish I could say to my H what Bonnie said to Nathan. I feel the same way about my H. I don’t think I’ve ever really loved him. I just wish I could say that to him.

I forgot to invite my SIL to my daughter's birthday. I have more than enough time to correct this but I probably won't. I do not feel bad.

My wife just took a $20k pay cut to quit her job and work for the Bernie Sanders campaign. I've never been so proud of her in my life or so proud of the example she's setting for our 3 kids.

He told me straight up “You’re the reason I want to kill myself” Fuck you and fuck blaming all your problems on me asshole.

I’m scared I’m really sick.

My kids are grown and out of the house now but, most of the time I was raising them, I had the thought "You have NO idea what the fuck you're doing!" running through my mind.

I avoid people when I learn they have depression or other mental health issues. I do so because *I* have depression & anxiety. I know 1st-hand how big a basket case they make a person (I'm useless for months), and I don't want to be dragged down by them

Part of why I chose my husband is for my mother-in-law. She's everything my own mom never was. LOVE her!!

Men aren't worth the sacrifices we make for them. As soon as this divorce is final, I'm single for life.

I am a total shut-in. DS is an adult, and I go weeks without seeing anyone. The scary part? I really like it.

DH got the dog a new chew toy. The dog loves it but, at 12" long and 2" thick of bright rubberized plastic, I'm having a hard time not laughing because it looks like he's chewing on a giant dildo.

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. I only stay for my kids.

H called me a bitch again today.

DH hides in the fucking basement all day “working,” but resurfaces at bedtime to stir up the kids. I’m done.

I never have a place to sit. DH and kid sprawl out all across the couches. I saved and bought ME a chair. MINE. DH Said it "didn't match" etc. Guess who is now sprawled out on it? (Dh!). I just need one place that is mine.

Why can’t it be my mother-in-law who is dying and not my mom? This sucks.

I can stop thinking of my son in law sexually even while I’m with my husband it my son in law I fantasise about .... is this normal???