CONFESSIONAL

I don't want to cook --- ever!

Motherhood is a fucking trap.

I hate the YouTube channels that are just adults playing with kids toys, and making stupid stories up. These should be banned.

Therapist lmk that DD is behind developmentally in areas that explain the hell I’ve been living for ages. Finally some mother fucking explanation and a plan moving forward. The hell will continue but this tired mama is validated!

Fall candles are out and a tiny piece of me feels like maybe this means the pandemic will end and we can just breathe a little.

I thought I was okay with our schools precautions for covid- but watching the schools who have already gone back and how quickly cases are spreading... I am having major doubts. Parenting during covid is horrible.

I need to go on anti depressants but I can't afford the medication. Double whammy.

On lockdown until I get test results. I know chances are slim but I am still nervous that it will come back positive.

My bio dad is very well off but has never fucking offered to help us when we struggled financially Never offered to help pay for my college. Never asked if we needed anything after the kids were born. He's a narcissist and I hate him.

Sitting in the parking lot of the grocery store crying. Can't go into work looking like this, can't go home to H. Being alone is an unbearable feeling

My desire to pack up my family and move abroad is so strong that it makes me feel ill. Tired of this place, this life, and this stress. Too bad we'll never be able to afford it.

I don't understand the fascination with social media. Facebook, Instagram, Twitter and that stupid fucking Snapchat. Why do people crave a fake world? If I'm gonna live in a fake world, it's gonna be in the wild not some weird ass app.

I'm 59 and in damn good shape. I flash my 64 year old husband at the front door as he leaves for work and he still gets excited.

I know her name.H'd never guess how much I don't care. She can have him. H's a weasel to everyone. She'll learn. I'm going to spend all of H's money before I leave him, tho. It felt so good to finally tell H he can't fuck his way out of a wet paper bag.

Porn hub satisfies me better than my husband.

Do they ever grow up?! First time mom to our DD who is 6 mo old and feel like I’m in the movie Groundhog Day. Doesn’t help that she’s fussy 80% of the time. Feel like she’s not meeting developmental milestones. Ready to run away...

I can’t stay away from him, I’ve tried. My heart and soul long for him every single day. The only time I truly feel alive is when I’m with him. The energy between us, he feels it too, it’s a drug. He’s not my DH but I can’t stay away

He cancelled at the last minute. I am more devastated than I should be.

I really dislike the word "panties"

I stumbled upon some BDSM photos online. I was surprisingly aroused. I had two orgasms w DH while fantasizing abt women. Mmm

I kind of like having to wear a mask in public. I can talk to (and answer) myself without being discovered. Plus, It hides my COVID chin!

I don't know how this is going to end but it sure as fuck can't go on like this.

I'm having a hard time with H and our kids and I know the problem is me. I let them walk all over me and now I'm at the end of my rope. I don't understand how to set boundaries without being hostile and on alert all the time. I think I'm really messed up.

My mom had an untreated mental illness. I got away from her and then married someone just like her. I can't maintain friendships because I don't trust people. I've never felt loved and I don't think I ever will, but it's all I've ever wanted.

Toying with the notion of starting up with AP again after nearly a year of online only contact, he’s local but he’d lied to me about sleeping unprotected with another woman. I’m married FFS could’ve caught something and brought it home. I NEED him tho..

I'm glad I realized at 32 that control is not love. I was the controlling one

Very sexual dream about my EA. Woke up with wet panties thinking about him.

The whole pandemic experience has made everything feel completely pointless. I wish I could just quit my job and figure out what I really want to do. Being a project manager is so fucking dumb. Nothing I do helps anyone. If I didn't have kids to support..

The only reason I’m not leaving my husband is because I need his health insurance.

Little does my husband know but when our daughter graduates high school next May I’m divorcing him !!!

Today was the first time I thought of all the reasons why SO and I are 1,000% incompatible and didn’t cry or try to convince myself that things aren’t all “that bad”. I’m ready to go.

My APs wife found out. She knows my name. I told him months ago he was asking to be found out. Fuck.

I tested positive for COVID-19 at the beginning of July, it is over a month later and no one has yet contacted me about contact tracing.

I don't like my cats or my step kids but they all seem to love me. Ughhhh just go away already

H has a very small window here to pursue me and make things good. I’m there and ready to put in the effort but I’m also open to new things if he doesn’t. Couple new things lately are really exciting me...

I think Adam Driver is so ugly.

I really hate my life.

I was a little upset at DH’s number of sex partners before we met (11 to my 2) but maybe that’s why he’s so good in bed.

He was in a relationship with her but having sex with me for the majority of their relationship.

I want to be free.