CONFESSIONAL

Not rich or even middle class, but I’ve decided to make room in my budget to hire a part-time nanny on occasion. Will also be taking more days off from work. I need more time to myself, it’s not negotiable anymore.

I really miss his energy.

I'm dead inside. My husband killed my spirit.

I've never had that butterfly/fireworks love with DH. It's been more of a slow burn. I appreciate it more now at 23+ years and truly look forward to our later years together.

At least once every week, I go to the gym simply to sit in one of the family restrooms, watch porn, and masturbate for a half-hour.

DH and I haven’t had sex in months. I don’t miss the sex as much as I miss the idea of sex. We’re still very affectionate with each other, so not sure what’s going on. We are late 50’s in age...maybe it’s normal

Maybe I'm being paranoid, but my weed stash always looks a little smaller after work than it did when I left that morning.

My H's past bothers me.

H knew going in 8 years ago that I was a drinker. Now, he's acting horrified & giving me grief about it.

My H is such a fucking homophobe that I can't even watch Schitt's Creek when he's home.

I swore up & down that I would never be one of those women who stays with a man she despises, yet here I am.

My mother is physically unattractive and this has always been a source of embarassment for me. I wanted a pretty mom like my friends had.

I don’t associate with my siblings because they all have mental issues that are far too much to deal with.

My children are much better than me in everything.

I regret breaking that that sweet boy's heart back in high school. I'm so sorry J, wherever you are. :(...

My H is a gross, nasty motherfucker. I can't wait to be rid of him.

If every time I needed a release I waited for a man to bring me to orgasm, I'd be in agony.

I realllllllly fucking HATE HIM.

Struggling. H & DD are constantly asking if I'm ok. I'm not. I don't know what else to say or what to do to help myself, but I'm anxious, depressed, & unhappy with myself & my marriage. I'm in therapy, but it doesn't feel like it's helping.

I know if I told DH to kill someone for me, he’d do it without question (other than asking how painful I want the death to be).

I'm so mad at myself for choosing to marry two different bad tempered assholes.

I love parenting babies, but I'm terrified I won't enjoy parenting a kid over 6 or frankly know how to do it very well. I'm pretty sure my parents stopped paying attention to me once I started school so I don't have a model of it.

I love kids so muchh

I'm upset over breaking up with my boyfriend so I woke up my husband and to him to hold me.

My husband keeps saying the joy will come later with this pregnancy. Okay, but when?? I am already 20 weeks. I fear he will resent this child and it will ruin our whole family dynamic.

H told me to "stop bullying him" because I asked about a $124.00 cc charge. Yeah, what the fuck ever. This man has lowkey bullied me for 2 decades. I can't roll my eyes hard enough sometimes.

I went to my cousin's ate a brownie I thought she baked BUT it was loaded and 30 minutes later I was HIGH AF couldn't drive bc EVERTHING was funny and I was flying... in my 30's and that was my 1st marijuana experience.

I’m a fool. I really honestly thought he loved me and would be there for me for the rest of our lives. I’m an idiot.

He's an asshole, but an honest one. This is on me.

He serenaded me for weeks, told me I was beautiful and made plans...I felt for it and let him in. He ghosted me the next day.

Ds said Dad always sounds annoyed, yells at you. Wish he was exaggerating.

I’ll go to my office tomorrow to read a mystery novel all day. I want to clear my head from the last 4 years, and year of COVID with everyone home and always needing me, of my job getting harder and my pay being cut. My book is due at the library so......

This is the second year in a row that my husband ruined my birthday.

I'm afraid to go to church bc we have so many problems and I don't want to go there and have our dirty laundry out in our community but I also don't want to go and pretend like our lives are fine therefore just living the same lie in a different setting.

I don’t give a shit what really happened. Truth is, I laugh inside every time I think about how over the top crazy she became when she was caught... And that all her friends know for sure, she is full of shit.

I’m having a marijuana induced panic attack.

It hurts worse when you think you found you tribe but then realize you really aren't one of them than of you never get involved in the first place.

I have a thing for Andy Samberg. Like idk what that’s about.

I’m high as a kite. I was gifted a large amount of “plant matter” and I chose to make butter, but now I have over 2lbs of very potent cannabis butter in my freezer and I’m such a light weight idk what I’m gonna do with it. Gifting maybe?

I felt nothing but absolute relief & happiness when I read my criminally insane, abusive ex-stepfather's obituary. Like a curse was finally lifted.