CONFESSIONAL

Teacher here. Love my job. I just got divorced a year ago and am back to my maiden name. Glad kids love me, remember me, and stop by my room to chat but the majority of them know me as Mrs. Married Name. I'm reminded of EXH 180 days a year. FML

My grandma has been rapidly losing weight, extra distant and looking sickly since she moved in with her BF. Never met him but I suspect something---weird? is going on. Not necessarily bad or sinister but strange.

Realized I have been calling a mom in DDs class the wrong name for 5 years. Only the end letter was off but still. Mortified! She didn't correct me until now. OMG

No matter the biggest/longest pads I use, I usually leak a bit at least once every period. Not that it's heavy, but I roll around at night, make it to the bathroom a teeny bit late so pad/tampon leaks a little---etc.

DD6 had stomach virus and was throwing up. Brought her to doc and had trashcan next to her while waiting in waiting room---only 10 mins. She threw up twice in can. Receptionist and nurse got mad she threw up. This is a ped dr's office---WTF do you expect?

WTF---I know they're necessary and I can get them cheaper online, but OMG are glasses expensive. And I have GOOD insurance too. Not a financial burden either but still---oh my goodness!!! $300 for a pair???

DD16 has been sniffling/hacking for 3 wks. I thought it was allergies. Finally brought her to dr today and its pneumonia! In the summer! Feel like shit. Got her her favorite Panera soup on way home and her fave ice pops but still feel bad. Mom fail.

I like summer the best, but after awhile, I like the chill of fall and the foliage, then like the chill of winter and the blooms in spring. Feel weird for not having a favorite season.

NEVER during the school week do I cook my kids a hot breakfast. I have to get ready for work and not getting up super early to make pancakes or omlettes so it's cereal, toast, Eggo waffles and if DS13 wants eggs he can scramble them himself. No shame!

My husband has to steamroll over every single God damn project, no matter how small, that I try and start on my own. Like PISS OFF and let me do it! I'm not an idiot, I can manage! Why can't he just leave me be and give me a tiny bit of praise in the end?

Engaged & scared of getting married because I don’t want my children to lose Medicaid. How shitty it is to be An American and have to decide between marriage and health insurance.

I just had twins and my husband told me I’m fat. How could he be so hurtful? It broke my heart.

I tell dirty jokes better than the men I work with.

My dad died over a year and a half ago. I'm still in denial.

Yep still in love with him. Not my husband.

I need to sleep train my preschooler. I think the only way will be to lock her in her room at bedtime... I have a lot of guilt. But mama needs to sleep! And get some lovin’!

H comes home today and tells me he's quitting his job because he can't handle the bullshit. He just started there in April. I'm at the same job 27 years and I don't think he made it to a year at a job yet. Wtf was I thinking?

Stopped cutting so now I hit myself in the head. Progress? Probably dementia, but won’t be my problem, ha!

I have to stop telling people when I’m off from work. No, I don’t want to watch your kid all day on my day off!

No dad. I did a lot of self work in therapy and learned how to be a good partner (and also be able to recognize a good partner). H is an amazing man, husband and father. I don’t think this an accident. I worked hard to get here

I may receive a small inheritance if a loved one dies. I don’t want them to die, but I can’t stop thinking about how I could use the money. The guilt over this makes me want to avoid them and being around them makes me feel like a scumbag

We make $130,000 a year. How are we still living paycheck to paycheck?

Today I was an excellent version of myself. I was actually able to BE the person I always strive to be. I was a good wife, a good mother, and a good friend. I did something nice for myself and was kind to myself mentally... days like this are so rare

I can love my kids a little bit more now that they are back in school.

The thought of remaining married makes me feel emotionally exhausted. DH is trying but it may be too little too late.

Due to our cosleeping and my SAHM status, I sleep in the guest room will DS. I LOVE it.

H, I took horticulture in HS & botany in college, but you go right on ahead and tell me what I'm doing wrong with the plants & garden. (Eye roll)

Just so meh about my life. Feel like I’m of no importance to anyone - I’m invisible unless they need something. Can’t wait for it all to end. And this is me ON antidepressants, ugh.

Other women my age are becoming grandmas. I have a kid in first grade.

I actually think my period smells pleasant.

So about to be completely done w FB all together.... So fucking tired of all the "God is so wonderful" crap..... That's 90% of my feed..... totally over it Karen, "God" did not make the waitress give you extra fries

When, in response to his frequent desire for post-50 sex, I told DH "When I talk with my friends, they tell me none of them are having sex w/their DH's any more either! You know what this means - don't you?" DH said "Yeah - you need to get new friends!"

I actually want to physically harm the child that made my son cry.

So burnt out doing everything. Work FT at a demanding job. Do everything for kids and new puppy. All household chores and finances. Dh mows the lawn once every 3 wks and deserves an award. Eye roll.

Apparently, my hormones decided to give me two periods a month instead of one. How awesome is perimenopause? Blah.

My marriage might be on the downward slide.

DH's doctor changed his prescriptions and the ED he was experiencing as a side effect has disappeared. OH, FUCKING JOY!

I hate when DH buys clothes for me. He's terrible about guessing what size to get and, even if he does get the size right, his taste in women's clothes definitely runs more to the slutty side than mine.

DH is a sucker for anything "Neat!". Unfortunately, when HE finds something neat, he buys it for ME as a gift, figuring he kills 2 birds w/one stone - get the neat thing AND take care of my bday gift. More clutter rather than something I want or need.

I hate my MIL. I’m cordial but it’s so hard, she’s pure negativity. She’s narcissistic, petty, a gossiper, mean and passive aggressive. No one in H family notices, she plays the victims card well.I can honestly say if she died, I probably wouldn’t be sad.