CONFESSIONAL

He’s industry has him working 18 hours a day because they’re making up for lost time because of covid. The best thing about him being gone all of the time, other than the money, is that the neighbors don’t hear him screaming at me anymore.

Some of my bullies back in school were the teachers.

My boss & I have this incredibly strong draw to one another….& tonight we made out in his office. It felt sooo amazing and yet we know it’s technically cheating.

My husband of 5 years is mad that I am emotional over the death of my exh. He was the father of my DC now all in their 30s. The first man I loved. Not perfect but my children's father. Married over 15 years. Pissed at DH.

if it were up to me, we'd stop with all the disposables all the time. but dh has the idea that only bottled water is good. and we need paper towels for cleaning instead of washable rags. kleenex not hankies etc. sorry mother earth, i do what i can.

turning off the tv is a big help. i like the quiet. enjoy my shows, but i have stopped running it 24/7. seems to feel calmer.

My husband says I compare him to my Ex too much. When literally I’ve never done that. He doesn’t know how bad things were with him but he would if he would fucking ask me and listen. I was traumatized

grown son refuses covid vax just like his dad. i am worried that i may lose both of them. cannot seem to convince them to vax. i pray to god they don't get sick and die on me.

My husband is always begging me to not leave him. Well how about you make me want to stay?

sahm of grown kids here. dh is happy for me to stay home and not work and so am i. but i feel myself getting more detached from the world. i stay at home days on end and feel anxious at going out. dh won't let me order groceries or i'd never go out.

My husband rarely fucks me. Not even for my birthday. I feel alone. I fantasize about when I was single and how bad men would want me and how they’d look at me. I still look great but he doesn’t see me

it felt so good to send all the junk mom and mil had foisted on us over the years. seeing those things go was such a relief. i am working on getting my home down to only the things that are functional and i love w/o keeping it all. sick of clutter.

My husband won’t stand up to his coward of a “father”. It doesn’t matter how many times he lets him down, he always lets him get away with it and then I have to pick up the fucking pieces

I could have luggage & my hands full with one of OUR children while walking the dog to our car & DH cuts me off to open the door for his mother…maybe it’s time to throw him away so he can marry his true love, mommy dearest. Fucker.

If a woman juts out her chin & says “Oh, I just buy my own gifts because he never knows what I want” understand that she probably went multiple years of NO gifts before she realized if she doesn’t buy herself things, they never get bought.

4 friends & I all had kids w/in a year of each other. My mom tribe. Now kids are all 3 and the other mamas have either had their 2nd, are pregnant, or are doing IVF. We are one and done for several reasons but I am so achingly jealous. The grief is real.

Literally do not care if brother in law elopes. But I notice I took *a lot* of shit for limiting my wedding invites to 300 and everyone else can do what they want without comment.

Seeing myself in pictures triggers my setting disorder.

getting to the point that i never leave home except for groceries or if friends ask us to their home. i hate the bad behavior i see in public places. i am just done.

DH is convinced he was passed over for a job b/c he’s a cis het white male. Dude, that may be true, and it was a blow to our bank account, but as a woman who has to scream to be heard when I say the same things you do my sympathy is wearing very thin.

I got a big raise today. I am so happy. Single mom here. I wouldn't be able to make it on my old salary if it weren't for child support.

I found out Friday that my husband was cheating on me. I want to die I want to die

I am so tired of the bedtime shitshow. It’s making me lose my fucking mind

I just yelled at H "stop messing up my fucking house!!" Not sorry. I need another child to clean up after like I need a hole in the head. Take 2 seconds to watch what the fuck you're doing!

Will never forget the year I had "erotic" photos taken for our anniversary & H response was "Why did you do this? I know what you look like naked." Meanwhile, had a pic in his drawer of his ex spread eagled, naked for 20 years. Forever hate him for it.

My county has 50k population. Less than 30% fully vaxxed. These mouth breathers are all at the county fair. We are so fucked.

I have one DD. She’s basically a perfect child in every way. Been a joy to raise. I don’t have more because she’s all I need, and why risk it?

I really don't think I want to sign up for this long term. Child support, ex wife, too much baggage for me. Then the kids get older and start staying in my house and making messes, gobbling up all financial reserves, no thanks.

dumb fuck sil/bil got dumb ass kid a scorpion. says the sting feels like that of a bee. hope that idea comforts you when you wait for anti-venom.

Anyone else feel like it is 2020 all over again? Didn’t get out of my pjs today, counting down the days to school starting.

Despite the fact that my mom's stroke was 'moderate' and she is about 95% recovered, my dad is still struggling with what she can't do (remember details or be articulate). They are miserable. Married 43 years. It is awful to watch.

Some of the most loving, committed couples I know are not married.

H won't give up without a fight which is why I stay. It just wouldn't be worth the drama he would cause if I tried to leave.

I have to put vodka in my sweet tea all day when financial bully h works from home. His constant presence here is very anxiety-provoking. I'm always braced for criticism, must tolerate him because of financial survival for us.

H took a vac day today and corralled me for a 3.5 hr talk/rant about our finances - UGH. Typical for him, it deteriorated into politics (him pro-Trump, me the opposite because I got the Biden stimulus checks & he didn't) at which point I ended it. Bad.

I guess I'm supposed to feel guilt about having to work to provide for my son, but how else were we going to survive?

I have never enjoyed sex.

I am so self conscious about how big I've gotten this pregnancy. I'm 34 weeks along and I feel like a complete fatass

DH makes sure I come 3 or 4 times every time we have sex. If he's not in the mood, he'll still take care of me. Sometimes, he gets hard and I blow him, but sometimes not. Sex is important to us and we both work at making it fun and pleasurable.

He turned me into a boring, anxious, shell of a woman. This isn't who I am.