Saturday night..... Xanax, Netflix , alcohol ...... yep! I'm living the life!! I'm so lonely 😞
I cannot beleive that I carried on with him like a teenager for so long. Actually started to beleive that he had feelings for me. I feel so fortunate that my husband loves me
Had the most traumatic bedtime with my 2 year old son tonight. Would have a large glass of wine to unwind if it weren't for being 8 months preggo :-(
The only way I can kinda manage sex with DH is to imagine this 18th century dude I totally made up in my head. I'm so lame.
I look at my should be SO and want to do something bad to him-like kill him-but 1) I am not physically stronger than him, 2) I am scared to look up how to poison online and 3)would feel bad for hurting my kids dad
I think the reason I'm alone is because I'm so embarrassed by my current situation
Dreading my parents visit. I'm 35. When do I get old enough for it to not matter?
All the neighbor ladies hang out without me. It makes me sad. I'm not that weird, they could include me sometimes.
This is horrible but sometimes I miss/wish my now DS8 was still in the hospital. Visiting him was a time of peace and tranquility-me time-that I haven't had in yyears
My husband left today and I'm secretly glad.
I'm obsessed with looking up plastic surgery procedures I could have if I just had the time and money. H says I'm perfect. I don't believe him for a second. I used to be super hot, now I'm definitely super not.
I am pretending I care right now. Really I just want to get a hotel room by myself. Drink beer, smoke cigarettes, eat chips and watch girly t.v. Instead I am sitting here with the DH who I know wants to have sex eww