You can now read the full text of Christine Blasey Ford’s letter regarding her alleged sexual assault by Supreme Court nominee Brett Kavanaugh
Days after coming forward as the woman who accused Supreme Justice nominee Brett Kavanaugh of sexual assault, CNN has released the content of the original letter that Dr. Christine Blasey Ford wrote to Senator Dianne Feinstein when she learned that her assailant was on the short list to sit on the bench of the most powerful court in the United States.
The letter, which has most of the key names redacted, is a stark and level retelling of what Ford says happened at a high school party in the early 1980s.
“Kavanaugh physically pushed me into a bedroom as I was headed for a bathroom up a short stair well from the living room,” Ford wrote in part. “They locked the door and played loud music precluding any successful attempt to yell for help. …Kavanaugh was on top of me while laughing with REDACTED, who periodically jumped onto Kavanaugh. They both laughed as Kavanaugh tried to disrobe me in their highly inebriated state. With Kavanaugh’s hand over my mouth I feared he may inadvertently kill me.”
Ford, a Palo Alto psychology professor, sent the letter to Feinstein confidentially, who then turned it over to the FBI. When it seemed like she had to, she then came forward and shared her story publicly. Ford stressed that she told her husband and therapist of her experiences in 2012, and has since passed a lie detector test regarding the events.
Kavanaugh has denied the account vehemently and refused to talk about it — but all that will likely change as both he and Ford may speak at a future hearing. It looks like his camp is already teeing up for a “locker room talk” sort of lame defense, referring to anything that may have occurred as possibly just “rough horseplay.”
Since she came forward, Ford has received an outpouring of support from colleagues, former classmates, and students who stress her morality, professionalism, and patriotism.
Actress Julia Louis-Dreyfus was among the alumnae who came out in support of Ford — she attended Holton Arms school as well, along with another nearly 600 former students who are speaking out.
Everything said in the letters of support are apparent in her original letter, where she states, “It is upsetting to discuss sexual assault and its repercussions, yet I felt guilty and compelled as a citizen about the idea of not saying anything.”
Considering the character assaults and accusations that she’s faced in the past few days, not to mention the horror of having her past trauma revisited so publicly, we should all laud Ford for the sacrifices she’s made by coming forward.
Here’s the full text of the letter, according to a source that read the account to CNN.
Dear Senator Feinstein;
I am writing with information relevant in evaluating the current nominee to the Supreme Court.
As a constituent, I expect that you will maintain this as confidential until we have further opportunity to speak.
Brett Kavanaugh physically and sexually assaulted me during high school in the early 1980’s. He conducted these acts with the assistance of REDACTED.
Both were one to two years older than me and students at a local private school.
The assault occurred in a suburban Maryland area home at a gathering that included me and four others.
Kavanaugh physically pushed me into a bedroom as I was headed for a bathroom up a short stair well from the living room. They locked the door and played loud music precluding any successful attempt to yell for help.
Kavanaugh was on top of me while laughing with REDACTED, who periodically jumped onto Kavanaugh. They both laughed as Kavanaugh tried to disrobe me in their highly inebriated state. With Kavanaugh’s hand over my mouth I feared he may inadvertently kill me.
From across the room a very drunken REDACTED said mixed words to Kavanaugh ranging from “go for it” to “stop.”
At one point when REDACTED jumped onto the bed the weight on me was substantial. The pile toppled, and the two scrapped with each other. After a few attempts to get away, I was able to take this opportune moment to get up and run across to a hallway bathroom. I locked the bathroom door behind me. Both loudly stumbled down the stairwell at which point other persons at the house were talking with them. I exited the bathroom, ran outside of the house and went home.
I have not knowingly seen Kavanaugh since the assault. I did see REDACTED once at the REDACTED where he was extremely uncomfortable seeing me.
I have received medical treatment regarding the assault. On July 6 I notified my local government representative to ask them how to proceed with sharing this information. It is upsetting to discuss sexual assault and its repercussions, yet I felt guilty and compelled as a citizen about the idea of not saying anything.
I am available to speak further should you wish to discuss. I am currently REDACTED and will be in REDACTED.
In confidence, REDACTED.
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