These Are The Things I Worry About As a SAHM

by Sumiti Mehta
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Sumiti Mehta

I made a decision to stay home with my kids because I wanted to be with them, and I was very confident that no one else but only me — their mom — will be able to do a great job of raising them.

Now, on the downslope of parenting, there are days, where, I have reservations about being a stay-at-home mom.

1. I think that I let down my mother.

In some way, I do feel that I let down my own mother, who was the first woman to graduate in her family and worked for a reputed bank in India. My mom was the one who always inspired me and let me Dream Big. She had high goals and aspirations for me.

2. There are days when I feel like people around me think I do nothing.

They all see me cooking, cleaning, driving, volunteering and even writing, but they know what a “job” looks like and they don’t think I have one.

3. I have used my driver’s license far more than my education degrees.

I got my driver’s license after a couple of driving lessons within a month, but my Bachelor’s in English Literature and graduate degree in Public Relations and Advertising took four years of my persistent hard work and yet, for more than a decade now, I have used my driver’s license far more than my formal education degrees.

4. I get sucked into piles of volunteer work.

Some of this work surely is meaningful and satisfying and some of it is insignificant in the extreme — whether it is being on various boards or panels, or raising funds for schools. Volunteer activities involve a burst of events, but at the end of the day, those who are running the show carry on and my job is over.

5. I hover more.

Being around my kids so much of the time gives me the chance to focus on them at a very micro level. Helicoptering takes time, and I have the time. So I am labeled as a “Helicopter Mom.”

6. I slipped into a more traditional marriage.

In every way, my husband Sudeep, who I have been married to from 15 years, does see me as his equal, but in the years that I have been home, our partnership has landed in traditional gender roles. I feel obligated to do more than 50% of the housework not because he asks me or expects it, but because I actually have more time.

7. I have days when I feel this annoying sense of fading confidence.

Far and away, my biggest regret about me staying at home is that I have lowered my sights of capability for myself in my own mind. I have let go of my career ambitions and goals I once held.

If I could go back the time and get a do-over, what would I have done differently? Looking now at my two handsome sons, Akshaj (12 years old) and Atiksh (6 years old), I feel so appreciative for the gift of time that I spend with them. Be it in their schools or activities or working with their projects at home. This stage of my life is beautiful and, I know, my kids love me the most. This love and my time is helping me raise two smart, kind and compassionate boys just like my husband and I always hope ours will be.

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